falling for you

seventy seven

harry's POV

in the car i grabbed jordans hand and rubbed my thumb over her knuckles. every once and in awhile feeling the cold metal of the ring i gave her. the whole ride there we sat in silence. she leaned her over onto my shoulder and with my free hand i wrapped it around her shoulder. we finally pull up to her door and she hauls her suitcase out of the back. when we got to the door i wrap my arms around her waist and kiss the top of her head. when we release i grab an envelope out of my pocket

"for real this time" i smile at her

she smiles back and puts it in her jacket pocket

i lean down and place my lips against hers. she lightly bite my bottom lip and i place my hands on her cheeks. i inhale her sweet scent trying to enjoy every last bit before she left.

"i love you so much"

"i love you more harry" she whispers, "i'll see you in a couple months ok?" she releases her grip

and it broke my heart to hear that. knowing it was going to be months before i got to see her again. wrap my arms around her. i take in her sweet perfume. get to hold onto her tight. i kiss her forehead once more and she smiles and walks towards the door heading back to london again.

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jordans POV

"this is why forensic pathology will be majorly helpful in your future in the field. now that's all class i'll see you next week" my professor said and everyone filed out of the room. i walked out with sam as we were walking back to our dorm room. it was a friday and we had just finished our last class of the week which was forensic science. i walk into my room and figured i should clean some before going out tonight. my room was simply decorated. there wasn't much clutter just some clothes and some empty coffee glasses

school started a month ago and it had been three months since i've seen harry. we video called a lot but he was busy a lot like usual doing other stuff. when i finished cleaning i took a quick shower and got changed. i put on a pair of leggings and a black tank top and straightened my hair. then i set out my white sneakers that i was going to wear. tonight me and our unit were going out and doing some fun things. i don't really know what it was but we decided it would be good to let loose for a little bit. i mean i called them my unit but they really were just my best friends. i walk out and see sam in a white long sleeve shirt and black jeans. he was heating something up in the microwave and i sit on the couch and look at my phone.

"HARRY STYLES SPOTTED AGAIN WITH VICTORIA'S SECRET MODEL CAMILLE ROWE" i read and look at the photo

i sigh and run my hands through my hair. ever since i've left i've seen rumors of them around hanging out and grabbing dinner. there were many people who got many pictures of them laughing and talking. it was a making me  really stressed. i called harry about it and he told me not to worry and they were just friends that's all. so i didn't worry about it. but it's also making me stressed that more recently i've noticed comments on things saying how camille was better for harry than i was and maybe they were right. she was a model for gods sake. much better for him than me. i just turn my phone off and run my face over with my hands.

"so joe we're going to leave at 7:00 is that ok?"

i look at the clock, 6:00 already

"yea sam it is" i sigh

"are you good?"

"yea i am"

"you don't look like it"

"just stressed about some things"

he purses his lips and nodded slightly not questioning any farther which i appreciated.

"i'll be back in just going to make a phone call real quick"

"ok sounds good"

i step out the door and out into the hallway. i walk up a couple flights of stairs and down a couple hallways to this open area. i open these big doors that led out into a porch area where students could go to study or hang out. there wasn't any people out here at this time which i was glad so i sat down and took in the view

i was really beautiful. sometimes i found myself up here when i wanted to clear my head. i took a couple deep breaths in and sighed. i trusted harry very much. it's not like i thought he was cheating or anything but it was hard seeing them together especially when i haven't seen him in three months. the next part of his tour was starting in a couple of days. seven months of it down and now the next three months he was finishing in europe. his first show was nearby somewhere and he told me he was going to come and visit in a couple days which i was really excited about. i run my hands through my hair and grab my phone out. i wanted someone to talk to. not harry though because that would be too much. no i needed someone different. i had debated whether to call them or not. it has been awhile since i last spoke to them but over the years ever had the occasional text conversation. i look at their contact for awhile debating wether i should press call or not. what if they were busy? they're a busy person and i don't know. maybe they didn't even want to talk to me because it has been awhile. i mean i had hoped that we still had a friendship because i didn't want to lose that. i look at the time. 6:15. i only had a certain amount of time before we left. i better do it now before i thought of it any longer or over think it.

but what if they changed their phone number or something? but i did just recently text them about a month ago. i mean what could go wrong? i was really bad at this. it took me another five minutes to finally turn my phone back on and pull their contact back up.

"this is so stupid" i say aloud to myself but no one was around to hear it

i finally click the call button and run my hands through my hair. the phone rang and rang and with every ring i got a little more worried that they weren't actually going to pick up. i also my hand across my forehead realizing what an idiot i was. my finger hovered above the end button for a second when i decided i should just hang up and talk to sam about it or something. right when i was about to press end i heard them pick up

with wide eyes i press the phone to my ear and let out a sigh

"hello?" i ask through the speaker

there was a moment of silence which caused my stomach to turn in knots but finally they spoke

"...boo bear?"

authors note: yes i know short chapter but the next few chapters are going to be intense🤡🤡

all the love

k.