it was the time to part but i know it won't be forever.
harry, i know we both said some things we regret last night. i'm sorry for upsetting you and getting mad. i'm being honest when i say i never wanted to hurt you or push it too far but i know we were both yelling things in the heat of the moment. we both yelled things that we didn't mean.
harry i wrote this note because i didn't want to say this in person. i wrote it because i need space. i'm sorry. i truly am. and i do trust you. i trust you with my life. and i hope that you have that same amount of trust in me.
i'm not taking a break just because of last night though. i was telling the truth when i told you about the comments i was getting from fans. it lasted for months and it was getting hard to handle on top of everything else. of course this wasn't your fault harry. i'm not trying to make it seem like it is. but when you blew up yesterday i just released everything that i was holding in.
i love you so much harry. i will never stop loving you. i mean it when i say a piece of me always will love you. that there's a piece of you in me that will never go away no matter what. i love your eyes. they're the most green eyes that i have ever seen. the way that they lit up when you preformed or when you got an idea. how they could show so much emotion. i love your hair. how it always smelled amazing. how numerous times i got my fingers tangled in its roots while we laid in bed together. how you would run your hands through it at certain moments. i love your hands. the way they would always find a place in mine. the way you held my face while we kissed. and god how i love your scent. how you always smelled amazing. how no matter what when i smelled it, it reminded me of you. i love you harry. i love you more than i could ever express in this letter.
but because of stress, for both my sake and yours. we need a break harry. i don't know if it's going to last weeks, months, years even. but it needs to happen. we need to sort our lives out a little more before going into each other's. this won't last forever i can promise that. but i think we should stop communication for now. we can find sometime in the future when we can talk again. we will talk again.
i love you forever and always harry edward.
all of my love
jordan rose"
my eyes were all glossed over and i was trying hard to wipe away my tears. but there was this constant pain in my chest that wouldn't go away. i don't know how to get rid of it. i look back at the envelope and see something else peaking out of it and pull it out. it was a photograph
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this was from one of our trips. i smiled slightly at it. it filled me with more pain though because i didn't know when i would get to do something like this with her again. i place my head in my hands and sit there and cry for awhile not knowing really what to do.
