JUST HOLD ON

CHAPTER 6

"What do you mean?" I whispered.

"I was adopted. I can not even say that. I don't know from where to begin." He sighed.

"Tell me from the start. First tell me how you found this out."

"I overheard Mom.." he stopped. I covered his hand with mine.

"Julie, talking to someone on the phone. She told that he cheated her and she regrets trusting him but she wants money so she is with me." He sighed.

"All the while I was thinking that she loved me. But she loved only the money that I am bound to get when I turn 23."

"Tell me everything Jake. I need to understand." I said softly.

"You are going to hate me." I looked at him flabbergasted.

"Jake, listen, look at me." He tried to avoid my eyes. I cupped his face and made him look at me.

"Jake, nothing and no one can ever tell me anything that would make me hate you. You were there when I was at my lowest and highest. You fucking stuck with me knowing that we both will never be one in future. You were there with me when Julie told you not to. You knew I could never love you the way you deserve to be loved but you still suck by me Jake. Just so that I could be happy. There is nothing that would make me hate you. Nothing." I gave a soft kiss.

"No one will ever understand our relationship more than us. Listen, look at me you fucking dick." I shouted.

He chuckled. But he looked at me.

"I wish circumstances were different and I could be with you. But we both know that isn't possible. We both love each other but not in the way we were supposed to." This was something I wanted to tell him from a long time. And he just told the same thing I meant to tell.

Why, why didn't he come before I could fall for Adrian.

"I know. We are complicated." I chuckled.

"Yes, we are."

I laughed.

"I love you Alexis. You have no idea how you have changed my life. It wasn't only me who helped, you are the reason I changed. If not for you I would have been the same old Jake. The one who goes around breaking hearts. You changed me, Alexis. But I also know that we both will never be completely happy. I know we cared a lot about each other and we were just a safety net for each other. That is why we though we could actually make this work out for this long. But we can not. You are not completely over him and I totally get it. He has been with you in much worse time than I have been. I know you have not told me the entire story and I don't care if you do not wanna tell me, I completely understand. We need to stop this before things get worse and we get too dependent on each other. We will never be happy Lexi and I do not want to see you like that." he explained.

Only when he said that out loud did I think that he was right. He was absolutely right. 

We were just lying to ourselves, we just so desperately needed someone that we thought this would work.

"Why do I feel like you are breaking up with me?" I asked, though I knew the answer.

"You already know it."

"Yes, I know. I love you too Jake." We then kissed each other.

We kissed knowing this would be the last one and yet it was the first time we had properly kissed. We cried but it was tears of joy. We both knew this day would come and it was here.

"I am still your friend." He said.

"No, you are my best friend." I said.

"And you are mine. But I am the fifth, right?" he asked.

"Huh."

"You are my first best friend. But you have 4 others before me. Adrian, Fahad, Nat, Brit or whatever the girl's order is and then me."

I shook my head.

"You and Fahad are in the same place for me Jake."

He smiled, a genuine one. 

"That was some kindergarten stuff." we laughed.

After a pause I asked him, "So are we going to continue it now or leave for later?"

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I drove back home after we had lunch at a restaurant.

He told that he needs time and process how to tell me and I gave him time.

I told him about Maa and we spoke for some time.

I called Nat and Brit telling them to come home.

"What you broke up and you're not even sad." Brit asked shocked.

"Oh come on Brit. We knew that they would not last. So did they. I am happy that they broke off before anyone of them could have gotten too deep."

I was so happy to have them as my friends.

"Yeah. But I really had hope." She said.

"Aww. It is okay. We will still see him. He isn't going anywhere." I said.

We hung out and they helped me explain my parents about this whole thing.

How we needed each other and how we grew with each other.

They were slightly okay with it. I know it would take time for them to get it.

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Jake and Alexis never had the kind of relationship that they were completely happy with. They were never in love with each other. 

They helped each other. Alexis made Jake a better person and Jake was there for Alexis as a support.  

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