"Hey Jungkook, Yoongi's awake and he wants to talk to you." Hoseok said with a tired smile, Jungkook nodding to him before getting up to follow him out of the small canvas tent. He turned to Taehyung with a smile, waving his arms to signal to the stuff that lay around.
"If you could start packing stuff up that'd be great, I'll be back in a sec." Jungkook said, Taehyung nodding as he started to roll up the blanket.
"You better be."
With that, Jungkook walked with Hoseok outside, passing the makeshift fire pit on the way to the larger tent.
"Is he okay? What does he want to talk about?" Jungkook asked the orange-haired male, Hoseok sighing and shrugging.
"He's a little calmer than he was last night, but I don't really think it's my place to tell you how he is. And he didn't tell me much, he just said he wanted to talk to you with me there." Hoseok explained, Jungkook nodding understandingly as they reached the tent that Yoongi was sat inside.
"I'll go in first." Hoseok said, Jungkook standing at the door as Hoseok went in, with Jungkook following soon after. The moment Jungkook walked in, a sympathetic look of concern came over his features when he saw Yoongi staring at the ground, clutching tightly onto Hoseok's hand as if he was afraid that he would let go. Yoongi looked awful, and it was clear that he hadn't really got any sleep that night. Jungkook went and sat in front of the two, noticing how the shortest male looked anywhere but the two other people that sat in the tent with him.
"You wanted to talk about something, Yoongi?" Jungkook asked, Yoongi nodding slowly in response as the other two waited patiently for him to begin.
"I just... kinda wanna clear things up. It's stupid but it needs to be said." Yoongi said in a quiet but gruff voice, Jungkook nodding even though Yoongi wouldn't see it.
"Go ahead." Jungkook said, Yoongi gulping and nodding slightly in return.
"Um... Kwan helped me to cope and now that... now that she's gone I don't... um... I don't feel too great." Yoongi began quietly, fiddling with Hobi's fingers in his hand to try and calm his rising nerves. Why was this so fucking hard? Hoseok just squeezed his hand in reassurance, Yoongi hating that he had to ask for help at this point.
"But it's one of those feelings that... that you know won't go away for a while, and H-Hobi helps calm my nerves so... I was wondering if... um... if-" Yoongi tried to talk, but he kept stumbling over his words, internally cursing at himself for how weak he must have looked in front of the others. Kwan prevented others from seeing him like this, so what would he do now? He honestly felt downright stupid.
"I won't separate you two for anything if you feel more comfortable that way." Jungkook said, Yoongi exhaling deeply as his words eventually got through to his racing brain.
"Thanks." Yoongi said gruffly, Jungkook smiling warmly and nodding towards them as Hoseok sent the youngest a look of appreciation.
"It's just... really fucking hard. I get so embarrassed when I panic and now I feel so exposed, like there's nothing to stop it. It's really shit." Yoongi said with a humourless chuckle, but the other two noticed that it came out shaky.
"I'll be right here. And the others will understand, you know that." Hoseok whispered to him as he felt Yoongi's hand start to shake in his own, the shorter male nodding stiffly.
"And I'll also make sure people don't crowd around if that'll help, I know it helps me." Jungkook said, Yoongi looking up at him but still failing to maintain eye contact.
"That... would be good. I understand if any of you think I'm overreacting. That... that K-Kwan was just a dog. But she'd been my companion since before all of this happened, and for her t-to be taken from me like that... it's c-cruel. It's all so fucking cruel." Yoongi said, shaking his head to himself with his eyebrows furrowed in anger as his whole body started to tremble more. He hated this. He hated that he had to get help, especially from people who were younger than him. He hated being treated like a child, but right now he just couldn't handle anything, it was all too much and he was barely hanging on.
"I'll do what I can, and we'll all be right behind you. We stick together, alright?" Jungkook said with a sense of reassurance laced into his tone. He knew that the ex-police officer wanted to say more, but looking up and seeing the state of anxiety the Yoongi was plunging into just from talking caused concern to wash over the other two.
"Yoongi?" Hoseok asked softly as Jungkook sent him a worried look, the shortest of the three shaking his head frantically as his heart rate quickened and breathing became more shallow. Yoongi dropped his head; he was so tired.
"I c-can't do this... I-I c-can't. C-could you-"
Before the first sob could leave his lips, Yoongi's face was buried into Hoseok's shoulder as the younger male had quickly knelt in front of him, bringing Yoongi's trembling frame into his embrace like he had done all night with his nightmares. Yoongi had expressed to him the previous night about how he calmed down faster and found it easier to collect himself when he had a shoulder or a chest to hide his face in and block it all out, and Hoseok would always lend his shoulder to him with a smile, making sure to tell Yoongi that he shouldn't feel embarrassed about it whatsoever.
The scene both warmed and broke Jungkook's heart as he gave a sad smile and a nod to Hoseok, before quickly leaving the tent to give Yoongi a sense of privacy. He knew what it was like to deal with anxiety and panic attacks. He knew how awful, humiliating and suffocating it felt, but he couldn't even begin to imagine the mental torment that Yoongi was and has been going through. So as the leader, he wasn't going to force or assume anything; whatever happens, happens.
Jungkook's sad expression soon lightened up when he saw that Taehyung had already packed up the tent, with Yuri and Jimin currently in the process of doing so. Taehyung looked up when he noticed Jungkook returning, furrowing his eyebrows as he could immediately see the worry in Jungkook's expression.
"Hey, how's he doing?" Taehyung asked, Jungkook sighing with a small shrug.
"Not great, but Hoseok seems to do a good job at keeping him calm so I think we're just gonna have to keep an eye on him." Jungkook replied, Taehyung frowning and nodding at his response.
"How about you, are you doing okay?"
Taehyung's question caught Jungkook kind of off-guard, but his puzzlement turned into an appreciative smile as he nodded towards Taehyung who was waiting for an honest answer.
"I'm alright. I think we all just need a sense of direction." Jungkook replied, and Taehyung smiled back with a shrug, slinging a bag of equipment over his shoulder. He honestly felt that events like these were bringing the squad closer together, forming stronger bonds between each of them and showing truly how much they needed each other to carry on going in this corrupt world that they lived in. It was almost bittersweet.
"Shall we get going then?"
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Apocalypse | BTS
Fanfiction[COMPLETE] 7 different boys, 7 different lives, 7 different personas, yet their shadows must become one in order to survive the inevitable~ When a large meteor is sent spiralling in the direction of the earth, it was known that the impact would have...
