In a Split Second

Chapter 34

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After our heated conversation and his offending remarks about me, I decided to calm myself with alcohol. Realizing everything that he said was true, well not all of it but fuck it. He doesn't even understand my situation right now. I don't give a damn about what he said. I tried to explain to him my side but it's not my fault that he thinks that way towards me.

I don't care if he thinks I'm reckless or if I'm too impulsive with my decisions. For the past five years, I trained hard. I trained even if my life is at sake. I trained everyday non stop, trying different things, learning every single step. There are days that I barely sleep and eat. I was so eager, always too driven and determined. Heck I got no time for other things. I wanted to be strong both physically and mentally.

I didn't care if I train 24 hours a day. My illness will never be a hidrance to me but sometimes I had no choice. Eventhough my mind says yes but my body says no. For years my heart is filled with remorse, anger and hatred. I wanted to get my revenge so bad that this fire within me grew more and more until it consumed my whole system. I was becoming a monster, I couldn't even recognize myself sometimes but it's none of my concern.

Revenge

Easy to say but hard to do. I was almost in the brink of death but I can guarantee that everything made me stronger. I'm no longer the weak person that I am before. This time, I learned how to fight even if it's a matter of life and death.

Still, I wouldn't say that everything turned into vain. I won't let my guard down. I will still train as hard as I trained before until the day come when I am finally ready to face him.

Uminom ako muli sa bote ng alak na hawak ko at dinama ang mainit na pagdaloy nito sa lalamunan ko. Gusto kong maglasing at kalimutan lahat ng sinabi sa'kin ni Uno. He must be very disappointed at me but like I've said, I don't really care.

Nandito ako ngayon sa veranda ng kwarto ko at dama ko ang lamig na simoy ng hangin. I tried to sleep but I couldn't so I just decided to drink, maybe it will help me sleep and forget. Hinawi ko ang hibla ng buhok na tumama sa mukha ko. Bumuntong hininga ako at tinignan ang bote ng alak.

"It's getting late, why are you still up?" I heard footsteps from a distance and suddenly, my cousin is right beside me.

Sumulyap siya sa'kin pero hindi ko siya pinansin. Narinig ko ang pagbukas niya ng lata ng alak at tinapat iyon sa'kin.

"Cheers?" he said

Tinitigan ko lamang iyon at sumulyap sa kaniya. He caught me eyes and a small smile formed on his lips. Tinama ko naman ang bote sa lata niya ng alak at sabay kaming uminom doon.

I heard him clicked his tongue and stared at me. "Can't sleep?"

Yumuko ako at bahagyang tumango. "Yeah," tipid kong sagot.

Inangat ko naman ang tingin ko sa kaniya. "And you?"

I heard him sighed and avoided my stare. "Thought you might need some company."

Napaawang naman ang labi ko at umiwas din ng tingin. "Did you hear our conversation?"

Uminom muli ako sa alak at tumingin sa kaniya. I saw how he twsited his lips and drank from his can. "Don't know the full story so," he shrugged his shoulders and licked his lower lip.

I clenched my jaw and furrowed my brows. "If you're just here to talk shit about me then go. I don't need your company."

I had enough with Uno already and now Rió?! No, no, no

"I'm not here to judge you alright? Besides I only heard a little. I didn't want to eavesdrop because I know you and papa had a private conversation," he said