In a Split Second

Chapter 8

#IASS08

Since I missed my first class, may 2 hours pa ako para sa second class ko kaya kailangan ko na talagang umayos at baka eto pa ang sisira sa grades ko. I may not be as smart as Reign but I study hard for my future. I wont let my parents money go to waste.

Andito ako ngayon sa library para isauli ang libro na hineram ko since namiss ko ang 1st subject at hindi ko na kailangan pa ito. Tumambay muna ako sa library at nagisip-isip.

Hindi parin mawala sa isip ko ang nangyari kanina at bakit ako lagi ang nakakaencounter kay Damien. I should just mind my own business but I can't help it. I'm just too curious.

Could it be that he has a split personality? I remember telling Reign about that but it was just my suspicion. Kahit ako din naman mabilis magbago ang mood ko pero ibang usapan ang kay Damien. I can tell na iba ibang personality ang pinapakita nya araw- araw at lahat yun ay nasaksihan ko na. Well, maybe not.

Nilabas ko ang laptop ko at nagsimulang mag search about sa split personality, although diniscuss na nito ni Sir sa psychology class pero gusto ko pang maraming malaman tungkol sa sakit na ito.

Isa isa kong cinlick ang links at maraming lumabas about sa sakin nayon.

"Dissociative identity disorder is a severe form of dissociation, a mental process which produces a lack of connection in a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions, or sense of identity. Dissociative identity disorder is thought to stem from a combination of factors that may include trauma experienced by the person with the disorder. The dissociative aspect is thought to be a coping mechanism -- the person literally shuts off or dissociates himself from a situation or experience that's too violent, traumatic, or painful to assimilate with his conscious self."

What? so Damien must have experienced traumatic situations in his childhood kaya nagkaganon sya?
Who am I to judge? I dont even know him. Nagscroll pa ko ng mga informations.

"Dissociative identity disorder is characterized by the presence of two or more distinct or split identities or personality states that continually have power over the person's behavior. With dissociative identity disorder, there's also an inability to recall key personal information that is too far-reaching to be explained as mere forgetfulness. With dissociative identity disorder, there are also highly distinct memory variations, which may fluctuate."

Kaya ba hindi nya maalala ang ginawa nya last week? It's one of the characteristics of DID. I'm getting goosebumps.

"Symptoms of dissociative identity disorder may include headache, amnesia, time loss, trances, and "out of body experiences." Some people with dissociative disorders have a tendency toward self-persecution, self-sabotage, and even violence (both self-inflicted and outwardly directed). As an example, someone with dissociative identity disorder may find themselves doing things they wouldn't normally do, such as speeding, reckless driving, or stealing money from their employer or friend, yet they feel they are being compelled to do it. Some describe this feeling as being a passenger in their body rather than the driver. In other words, they truly believe they have no choice."

That's why he suddeny punched Chris in the face. He has no control over it. I can't believe I'm saying this but I feel sad towards Damien. He must have a hard time during his childhood years. It's not his fault that he's like that but if he doesn't learn how to control himself, chaos might occur. I hope he undergoes therapy or something.

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako at sinarado na ang laptop dahil di ko na kaya pang basahin ang ibang information about sa sakit nayon. I don't feel so good. I still have a few minutes before my second class so tumayo na ko at nilagay ang laptop sa bag ko.