Beautiful Goodbye (COMPLETED)

Chapter 38: That should be me

Lianne's POV

"Congratulations, Lianne! You were stunning, the most gorgeous Goddess that we've seen." Bati ng mga blockmates kong lalaki.

"Salamat guys!" sabi ko.

On the inside, the compliments fell flat. Nawala na yung effect ng flattery ng ibang mga tao. It didn't really matter when it didn't come from the only person that matters to me. I tried to look around for Liam, but I couldn't find him.

"Lianne! There you are. Galing-galing mo sis!" Lapit saken ni Maine.

"Where's Liam?" tanong ko.

Biglang nagbago ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya. For a second, I think I saw pity in her eyes.

"Uhmm girl magpahinga ka muna. I'm sure napagod ka sa performance mo." Sabi niya saken.

"May problema ba, Maine? Asan si Liam?" tanong ko sa kanya.

"N-Nasa food square." Naga-alangan niyang sagot.

"Ha? Bakit dun eh walang katao-tao dun?" tanong ko.

"He's planning to surprise Bella. He's going to ask Bella to be his girlfriend." Pag-amin niya.

"And you guys knew this?" Pigil-hininga kong sabi.

"Sorry, Lianne. We kept it from you kasi ayaw naming masaktan ka pag nalaman mo." Sagot saken ni Maine.

"You should've told me sooner!" sigaw ko.

No No No! This is not happening. Naglakad ako palayo, wala akong pakialam kung nakabihis-Diyosa pa ko.

"Lianne! San ka pupunta?" Pagpigil saken ni Maine.

"Kakausapin ko si Liam, Maine. Hindi pa huli ang lahat. Hanggat hindi pa nakaka-oo si Bella. I'm sure pag nagmakaawa ako kay Bella, hindi niya sasagutin si Liam." Sabi ko.

"No, Lianne. Please don't do this to yourself." Pagmamakaawa ni Maine.

"No! Leave me alone!" sabi ko sabay takbo papuntang Food Square. Aabot ako, please wait for me.

Nang makarating ako sa Square nakita kong nakaluhod si Liam kay Bella. "Will you be my girlfriend? Please say yes." sabi ni Liam.

"Yes, Liam. A thousand times, YES!" sagot ni Bella. I felt my heart shattered into a million pieces. I fell on the floor as my world came crashing down on me.

Yung lalaking pinangarap ko nang ilang taon, ay napunta sa iba. Sobrang sakit panuorin ang taong sobrang minahal mo na magmahal ng iba. I can see the way Liam looks at Bella.

"That should be me." Sabi ko habang umiiyak.

"Lianne, tumayo ka na dyan." Hingal na sabi saken ni Maine.

"Sis, tayo ka na please."

"Maine, ang sakit, sobrang sakit. Para akong mamamatay sa sakit." Sabi ko.

"Aww Lianne... I'm so sorry." Maine hugged me and I literally broke down in tears.

"Kitang-kita ko Maine, it was perfect. It was exactly how I imagined it to be. It was so beautiful, Liam is so in love, but not with me. It was the only flaw. It was the most painful flaw. It was excruciatingly beautiful." Sabi ko. I cried like a baby in Maine's arms.

"I know, I know." I felt Maine crying with me.

"Ano bang kulang saken? Pakisabi naman oh, sana sinabi niya nalang para may nagawa man lang ako. Alam mo yung pinaghirapan mo, sinuportahan mo, but in the end, I've built a man for another woman." Sabi ko. "Ako dapat yun eh, ako Maine! Hindi si Bella, ako!"

I looked at them, Liam is hugging her from behind after giving her that beautiful necklace. It was sunflower, my favorite flower.

"Sobrang sakit. The fact that I'm the most beautiful Goddess tonight, but at the of the day, Liam chose a simple fairy over me. It didn't matter that I was the most beautiful woman nor if I was the most graceful dancer, Liam wanted her unconditionally." Sabi ko as I watch Liam spun her around.

Ipinagsigawan pa ni Liam na girlfriend na niya si Bella. I covered my ears para di ko na marinig pa.

"Tama na, tama na please." I sobbed.

Hinila ako ni Maine palayo. "Andito na sundo mo. Let's go home." Sabi niya saken.

I can't sleep that night. Paulit-ulit nagpeplay sa utak ko ang nasaksihan ko kanina. Binuksan ko ang conversation namin ni Liam. I sarcastically laughed at myself as I scrolled back into our conversation history.

"Stupid girl. Gabi-gabi ka ngang nagtetext sa kanya, hindi ka naman nirereplyan unless org related." Bulong ko sa sarili ko. Sa conversation niya kaya kay Bella? Siguro sobrang sweet niya magtext.

Ano na kayang ginagawa nila ngayon? Is he holding Bella in his arms right now? Are they having their first kiss? I can't stop overthinking. Binuksan ko ang isang album sa photos ko na puro litrato ni Liam.

May mga litrato si Liam na kasama ako pero ni isa dun. Walang nagpapakitang tiningnan ako ni Liam gaya ng pagtingin niya kay Bella.

"Stupid, stupid Lianne. You never stood a chance since the very first day." Sabi ko sa sarili ko.

As I lay in bed, I stared blankly at the ceiling, drowning in my own thoughts. Sobrang daming scenarios ang tumatakbo sa isip ko. What if iba ang ginawa ko? What if I acted like how Bella would react in that situation? Baka mapansin ako ni Liam. What if I played hard to get just like how Bella did? What if I dressed up more casually like her? Maybe I'm too fashionable and over the top for Liam, maybe that's why.

Sobrang daming what if's and maybe. I cuddled my pillow and cried my heart out. Basang-basa na ng mga luha ang unan ko pero di parin ako tapos umiyak. Oras na yata para mag-move on ako. It's time for me to love myself first.

I'm just weeks away from graduating, maybe I can start a new beginning for myself outside the University.