Never let you go

Chapter 6

Chapter 6:

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I spend every night for the rest of the week at the hospital and by the end of my eight day stay there I look and feel exhausted. I have probably slept a total of 10 to 12 hours all week. The bags under my eyes are so awful that I actually decide to use some make-up to help hide them. It's funny I had finally gotten rid of my nightmares of what happened to Jason only to have them be replaced by nightmares of what happened to Hunter. Once again life was twisted and cruel.

Hunter is going home today. Daniel and I were able to work some magic and we got both his old apartment and his old job back. I was freaked out for a moment when I found out that Hunter's mom had known that he had moved away but luckily she hadn't told him and when Daniel explained that he had been planning on returning here she seemed to accept it. Everything was falling into place for once. I was relieved.

I visited Hunter everyday but I don't think I'm making much progress. He was still holding me at a distance and wearing his mask of armor. It was killing me. Every now and then though I catch him staring at me with a softened expression and it reminds me so much of the Hunter I knew before. I just want to shake him and tell him to remember me but I know that's not how this works. It's just so damn frustrating though. I miss him and I want him back and I'm terrified that that will never happen. I'm scared that maybe he'll never get his memories back and that this time around he won't fall for me like he did before. Was that possible? Could you fall in love with someone once and then forget everything, meet them again and not fall for them again? It seemed absurd but with the way things were going for me lately the absurd seemed entirely possible.

I had to try though. I had to show him that I'm not giving up. I know in my heart he would have never given up on me if the situation was reversed. Sure he messed up before by leaving, but he was scared and I think saving my life and nearly dying in the process more than makes up for any of the mistakes he has made with me. He was willing to die for me. That's how much he had loved me before. It was an insane thought but it was true. I wouldn't give up on him. I couldn't. I was too in love with him still. I always would be.

I'm headed to Hunter's room to see him one last time here before he is released. I know he's probably expecting me because I usually stop by around the same time every day. I'm nervous as per usual now. It's strange how much more pressure I felt being around him now than I did when I was first getting to know him. I guess that was because now it was like I needed him to like me. No, I needed him to love me. I was in way over my head.

"Hey" I say quietly as I walk into his room. He already looks a lot better. Of course he still has cuts and bruises all over but they were healing and his coloring had returned to normal. I still thought he was hot as hell but I guess I was biased. No actually I think pretty much any other girl in the world would agree with me on that.

"You're late" he says gruffly and I'm a little shocked that he even noticed let alone care. I look at the clock on the wall and sure enough he is right. I'm about 15 minutes late. That's what happens when you have to put on make-up to cover up the scary bags under your eyes.

I think about what I should say next and a part of me wants to apologize because that's typical behavior for me but then I think about how being sweet hasn't really seemed to be getting me anywhere lately and I decide not to take his crap.

"Sorry" I say. "I didn't think you'd notice."

My voice comes out a little sassy and I have to suppress a smile when I see the shocked look on his face. He wasn't expecting that from me. He quickly recovers though as usual and replaces the surprised look with a cocky smirk.

"It's kind of hard not to when you come by every single day at the same time like a stalker."

Ouch. That was kind of harsh. I try not to let it bother me but it does. Does he really think I'm a creepy stalker? Was I pushing too hard?