Never let you go

Chapter 8

Grey:

He invited me to stay. I was shocked when he did for a few different reasons. One being that I was experiencing déjà vu throughout this conversation because it reminded me of the time I had taken care of Hunter when he decided to get smashed during the day. The second reason was that I wouldn't have expected this new Hunter to invite me to stay and hang out, but it is something the Hunter I knew before would do. There are so many similarities between them that sometimes it was like he was still the Hunter I knew but then there were also so many differences that sometimes I felt like I didn't know him at all. It was a difficult situation.

As I sit on his bed with him and watch the movie all I can really think about is how much I want to curl up into his side like I used to when we would watch movies and eat junk. I'll take whatever I can get though and being here with him like this right now is nice. Every now and then one of us will make a comment about the movie but for the most part we stay silent and I begin to feel comfortable with him again. He's still able to make me feel safe and at peace. At least that hasn't changed.

I know he was shocked when I came waltzing into his apartment but when I found out earlier that he might be leaving I had to see him. I needed to spend every second I could with him. I needed to show his mom that I could be here for him and help him. I know it was a long shot but maybe I could get him to start to remember in a week and then there would be no reason for him to go.

When the movie ends I stand up and gather all of the garbage and clean up. Hunter thanks me and I can tell he feels bad that he can't contribute. He must feel pretty helpless right now and if I know him like I think I do than that feeling must be killing him.

"I'm sorry I can't be more help" he says as he offers me a weak smile.

"It's alright" I tell him. "I think you get a pass for a while."

Once I'm done cleaning I grab him some water and snacks and his pain meds and place them on his bedside table. I want to make sure he has everything he needs once I leave.

"Alright" I say as I scan the room making sure I didn't miss anything. "Do you need anything else before I go?"

I'm surprised when he says "You're leaving?"

His voice is neither hurt nor angry but I think I might hear some disappointment and I wonder for a second if I made it up.

"I don't want to overstay my welcome. Besides I was never really invited over here in the first place" I say with a laugh trying to keep my tone casual.

He surprises me again when says "I'm sorry Grey".

"What are you sorry for?" I ask truly confused.

"I've been kind of a jerk to you and you have been nothing but nice to me."

"Don't worry about it" I tell him. "You've been though a lot this week."

"Yea" he says. "But that's not really an excuse."

I can tell his mood and thoughts are turning dark and I hate seeing him this way. I know he's beating himself up on the inside. He's always been full of hatred and self-loathing. That's something that hasn't changed.

"I'm a tough girl" I say trying to lighten his mood. "I think I can handle your snarky remarks."

He smirks at me and I can see my attempts to brighten his thoughts are working and I mentally pat myself on the back.

"Stay" he says suddenly.

"What?" I ask because I'm really not sure if I heard him right or if I just made that up in my head.