Never let you go

Chapter 58

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He told me everything. I was shocked and heartbroken by Hunter's past but after I thought about it a little it made sense that he went through something so horrible. It's why he has put up so many walls and why he has tried to push me away again and again. He was scared of losing me like he lost Jess. He blames himself for what happened. I could never imagine being in his position. I guess in a way I was lucky being the passenger of the wreck even though I know with every fiber of my being that Jason was not at all to blame for my accident, because if it had been me driving instead I know I would find some way to blame myself for Jason's death. I know Hunter isn't to blame either for the deaths of Jess and his friends. If anything the kids in the other care were because they were drinking and driving and from what he told me it sounded like they were in his lane when they collided. Poor Hunter. My heart breaks for him and all that has happened to him. I'm just thankful that I was able to get to him before he completely cut himself off from this world and got lost in oblivion.

I know he was surprised that I didn't runaway after he told me about his past. He was expecting me to walk away from him and never return. He really had no idea that my love for him is unconditional. I couldn't stop loving him even if I tried and besides I can't blame him or hate him for his past because everything he has been through has turned him into the man I love today.

"You can close your eyes and go to sleep you know" I tell him as I open my eyes to his because I can feel him staring at me. He hasn't stopped looking at me since he finished telling me everything and that was over an hour ago.

He cracks a half smile as he runs his hand over my head and through my hair gently. His beautiful blue eyes are crystal clear and when I'm up this close I can see those little swirls of silver that are only visible sometimes. He really is beautiful.

"I promise I'm not going to disappear" I whisper softly.

"How'd you know I was worried about that?" he asks.

I reach up and brush his cheek softly with my hand and say, "Because I know you."

This earns me a smile. "I suppose you do."

I smile back and he leans into me and presses his lips to mine. He kisses me softly and I think the kiss is going to end quickly but right when I think he is about to pull back he deepens the kiss. He crushes his lips harder against mine and his tongue lashes out into my mouth and the pleasure of it causes me to moan softly. Hunter flips me onto my back and braces himself over me holding the majority of his weight on his elbows as he continues his delicious assault on my lips. I run my fingertips over the hem of his shirt and I feel his body react as my hands graze his abdomen. I touch every hard muscle I can find and let me tell you there are a lot of them. Finally I lift his shirt and he assists me in tearing it over his head. Once his shirt is gone I hold him off long enough so I can admire his incredible physique. It's almost unfair how hot he is, but I remind myself how he's here with me right now and how I have the privilege of calling him mine and it's suddenly not so unfair. At least not to me.

When my eyes and hands reach his scars and tattoos I feel sad for a moment but also incredibly connected to him. Not only did our bodies have similar scars but our souls did too. We both have lost people we loved at such a young age and in such similar ways. If I had any doubts before that we were meant to be together I certainly didn't anymore. We were made for one another. The people we were before our accidents were meant to be with the people we lost but the people we are now are meant to be. Fate messed up when she took Jason and Jess out of this world and I think this was her way of making up for her mistakes.

I pull him back down to me and crush his lips against mine again. God I love him and I want to be with him so badly but I'm still holding back because he still doesn't know about my past and he deserves to know. I could tell him now but I think it would be wrong to steal this moment from him. He deserves to have a few days of happiness now that his past is out in the open before I tell him about mine. I will tell him though, just not right now.