Never let you go

Chapter 73

Hunter:

When I return home from the cemetery I run up the stairs immediately searching for Grey. I need her right now. I need her so the pain that is tearing me apart on the inside will stop. As I look for her though she is nowhere to be found. She is not in her room, she's not in my room, and she's not in the kitchen or in my mom's studio. I search every room in the house and as I do panic begin to rise up inside me when I come up empty and the pain in my chest deepens.

I run outside to the backyard choosing to search there next. It only takes me a few moments until I spot her in the distance. She's sitting in the gazebo near the pond sketching as the sunlight illuminates her hair and skin. Seeing her stops time for me and my body begins to calm, but that only last a few moments before my need to hold her spikes. I race towards her and her eyes lift to meet mine while I'm still several feet away. Her face lights up a bit, but then deepens with worry as she takes me in.

"Hunter" she breathes as she stands to meet me, but I don't let her finish that thought. I gather her into my arms and crush my lips against hers before she has the chance to say anything else. My body relaxes as her lips brush against mine and my hands hold her tightly, but at the same time my heart is racing as my need for her grows. It's a strange glorious feeling. Her body trembles against mine and I can tell she is feeling all the same things that I am. I can tell we both know that we will never have enough of the other, that our need for one another will never be satisfied. It was both terrifying and exhilarating to need someone so much.

"Hunter are you okay?" she asks concerned through labored breathing as she breaks away from our kiss.

I nod, even though I am clearly not alright. I can feel the darkness knocking at my door demanding to be let in, but Grey is the only thing keeping it out. I'm not strong enough to do it alone no matter how much I wish I was. "I just need you right now okay?" I say my breathing as labored as hers is. "I just need this. I just need to get lost for a while. You're the only thing that can fix me right now." I can hear the desperation in my own voice and she must be able to sense it too because understanding flashes across her worried eyes.

"Then let's get lost together" she whispers just before her lips meet mine again.

She lets me take over as I control the pace of our kissing my desperation for her seeping through. I grip her tightly to me as my fingers dig into her slim hips. I need her closer. So much closer. The fact that we are out in the open right now is the only thing deterring me from taking her right here. Grey, must be able to sense my inner struggle and she surprises me when she reaches up to one of the buttons on her shirt and pops it open.

I part my lips to ask her if she's sure, but she stops me wordlessly with just a look. In that one look I can see how much she truly loves me, how willing she is to give me whatever I need. I love her so freaking much. I pull her to me again and I kiss her as piece of clothing after another falls away until there is nothing left between us. I slide inside her and as I do I feel so many different emotions. I feel contented at having her as close as possible. I feel exhilarated. I feel safe as the darkness that surrounds me falls away until nothing is left but Grey and me.

As Grey and I lay wrapped up together in the gazebo I feel lighter than I did at the start of this day. And I don't just feel that way because of what we just did. I did what I came here to do. I said goodbye to Jess. I let her know how much she still means to me. Even though it was an incredibly hard thing to do I did it, and I did it all on my own. I was proud of that and I know Grey was too.

"Are you okay now?" Grey asks quietly as she looks up at me and I can tell the sated feeling from her climax is wearing off as worry takes places in her peaceful eyes.