Never let you go

Chapter 54

Hunter:

Another week has come and gone since Grey and I have gotten back together and we are really happy. It's been an insanely long time since I have felt this way and I'm terrified of it going away. I'm even more terrified now to tell Grey the truth. I'm afraid she's going to be mad that I have been keeping this from her for so long.

Throughout the whole week Grey has been telling me more about our past and everything we did together. I'm extremely grateful for her photographic memory because she is able to relay all the stories with perfect clarity and detail. Most of the time she will recite our entire conversations word for word. It's pretty damn incredible but then again I wouldn't expect anything less from Grey.

I can tell from most of her stories that I more than likely loved her even then. She never says that I did or even hints at it but I can just tell. I wouldn't act the way I did with her if I didn't. No, she would have just been one of the nameless faceless girls I have been with over the last several months. I wonder if Grey knows about that part of my past. A part of me hopes she doesn't, but then a part of me hopes she does because I don't want to hurt her even more when I tell her everything. She deserves to know everything, from my relationship with Jess to the accident to how I dealt with my grief up until I met her. I just hope she can forgive me for all that I've done. She's already forgiven me for a lot.

I'm currently patiently waiting for Grey to be done with her tutoring for the day. She normally doesn't tutor on Friday's but since she cancelled all of her sessions last week she felt like she needed to make up for it. I couldn't tell her not to. It was my fault she cancelled them in the first place.

While I'm waiting I get a phone call from my mom. I haven't talked to her in a few weeks so I decide to be a good son and answer the phone. Besides, it will provide a distraction until I can go over and see Grey.

"Hello" I say as I answer.

"Hunter" she sighs. "Why haven't you answered or returned any of my calls?"

I feel a pang of guilt when I hear the worry in her voice. I know I should have gotten back to her to at least let her know I was alright. She deserved better from me.

"Sorry mom" I say sincerely. "I've just been a little busy these past few weeks."

"Well at least Grey has been kind enough to answer my calls" she says.

This surprises me. I'm stunned speechless actually and I become worried about what my mother could possibly be calling Grey about.

"What did you say to her?" I ask my voice suddenly darker and serious as my instinct to protect Grey kicks in.

"Relax Hunter" my mom laughs. "I was perfectly nice to her. Grey and I have worked things out. She's a truly lovely girl and I'm glad that you've found her. I was just calling her to tell her about your birthday coming up next week since I figured you didn't do that."

Shit. I had actually forgotten about my birthday coming up. I hated my birthday. I actually even hated it before the accident happened, but I celebrated it because Jess loved to make a big deal out of it. Last year though I chose to forget about it completely.

"Was she upset that I didn't tell her?" I ask cautiously. Even though I still really don't want to celebrate my birthday I don't want Grey's feelings to be hurt that I didn't mention it to her. I will let her throw me the most ridiculous party ever if that will make her happy.

"No she wasn't upset" my mom says. "I could tell she was surprised, but I explained to her that you've never been a big fan of your birthday. I think she understood." My mom pauses for a moment and I can tell even through the phone that there is something she wants to say, but either she's not sure she should say it or she's not sure how to. "She seems to be very accepting of you Hunter" she starts off, her cautious tone mimicking mine from earlier. "It's clear that you haven't told her everything about your past and I understand that that is your business, but as your mother I feel like I should give my two cents. That girl would do anything for you. She is exactly the kind of girl a mother prays her son will meet. Now I know I had my doubts at first but she truly is a remarkable girl and I feel like she deserves to know the truth and I also feel like you can trust her. I know you're afraid that she'll walk away but I don't think she will. I think her love for you is unconditional."