I paid a virgin

Chapter 29

Chapter Twenty Nine

Exactly, so why is he dumb enough to not accept that as unwanted?

The house was so eerie that morning when I woke up with my eyes suffering from sore because of the crying I did last night. The dump in my pillow looks like someone just poured their drinks on it so that’s why there was a United States map-like imprinted on it. I gathered my comforter tightly in my arms as the winter temperature made my room like a freezer. Last night I didn’t feel the full impact of the cold temperature because my mind was preoccupied somewhere else. Coming home like a severe wreckage was never been pleasant even if I wanted to keep the dramas in the bottle and leave it there but my parents needed the whole truth. I didn’t have the choice so I gave them all of it. I thank Charles for being there sharing everything I told him. He was the one who had explained and aided persuading dad not to do something that might put us in danger. All I needed is to talk to Tara and hope she will help me convince him not to post the video.  That’s all I needed to do right now and forget about everything he had done and about him. The pain for me is too much I couldn’t even imagine when it will stop throbbing; I can’t be like this forever, and that will take a step by step process.

I needed to get up now, that’s sure thing to do in the long process of recovery. Slowly, I push myself up, dangled my feet and stumbled to my closet to get something thick for cover. I went to the bathroom to wash my face and take a brush. Slow steps, Summer, don’t rush things and don’t think about the stuff that made you cry.

There was a sound coming from my phone when I entered my room. My heart beating furiously as I took the phone and see who it was. It was him of course. I let it ring and ring until he stop it.  Once the caller didn’t ring it for five minutes, I scanned my phone and there were fifty missed calls coming from him, a hundred texts that I didn’t want to read and straightly deleted it. There was an unknown caller too but I didn’t bother; I know it was him using anything to talk to me. But I’m tired of his lies, tired of him and tired for everything he did to me. I just wanted him to get out from my life now and never come back.

I took my laptop out and see the social networking site that I had joined in for the last years.  There were messages in it too –from him of course. I deleted everything without reading a single word.  After that I blocked him from my account and change my status to single. Marty and Hanley will notice this, but I needed them to know it.  I scroll down my photos and deleted every picture we have. There shouldn’t be any left evidence that suggest we are still together; I really want to get rid all of it.

I turned off my computer after my rebellious deeds were done then walked out of my room to see if my family is somewhere in the living room or in the kitchen.

The Christmas decorations in the hallways were the first cheerful sight I saw. I walked downstairs to see the Christmas tree, the lights, the decorations on it and the gifts under it. There were five missing boxes now and I knew why it was missing; it came from him and whoever removed it must’ve been shifting the gifts back where it belongs; I am not complaining or anything but I hope Mandy was okay with it.

Tomorrow is Christmas day. I hope my cheeks can accommodate a smile just for one day…for Mandy and the rest of the family.

I sighed and left the living room to go to the kitchen. Mom was there now making coffees and toasting some bread.

“Morning” I mumbled, picking up mugs and put it in the counter.

Mom gave me a smile. “Morning Sum, you want some breakfast now?” she asked kindly; her face was wearing a sympathetic face.

“Coffee will do for me mom” I told her. My stomach isn’t complaining yet for food to digest; but my system needed something warm to relax my shivering body.