Chapter 51

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Chapter Fifty one

There he stood taller than the last time we saw each other. My heart thumps fast at the sight of the man who was giving me a hard smile, eyes glaring in vengeance, stance like he wanted to trample me while I stood there paralyze at the sight of him. The emotions that course through me was overwhelming. There is excitement brewing out of control inside my body. I wanted to hurl  myself against him, hug, sniff or even feel his skin. There is no denying I miss him so much it hurts just to stand there and not do anything. The reason why I can't even touch him was his unwelcome face he is wearing right now. I know he was still nursing the way I hurt him before. And it seems like he never gotten to move on like I do for all these years.

 You know it isn't easy moving on to your first love. Especially when that person brought an impact to your life so powerful your thoughts are always stray on him and stays on him even if you thought someone can replace his place in your heart. It isn't easy. It take serious time for things to be okay again. Until then you are prisoners of your own emotions. 

And that is happening with the two of us. 

He wouldn't be so bitter if I didn't impact his life like he did to me. No matter how long since I ended things,  it still not healed us. Time can be a true testament of it. Time tells it all whether to heal or preserve that emotion you are keeping lock up inside. The only way to heal is give both parties a closer without any feelings of animosity. 

That's not our case here.

There is animosity in him, I on the other hand had never felt closer on the way I handled things. Not in that harsh way. I hurt him so much. So much the first thing I thought when I saw him was I will be in the line of his wrath.

What to do? What to say to him? My mind is suffering a massive black out. The unfriendly sight of him caused it. Admittedly,  I'm scared with this hate filled Trench. I don't know what to do with him. I don't know how to act or where to start. I deserve this there is no doubt about it.

I deserve this, but I never wanted this to happen. My choices after his father paid as a visit limits my choices. There is no debate who I will choose between him and my family. I rather lose one important person in my life rather than majority of it. That thought, I can live with that. A person can find someone no matter how hard it is but you can never find a family that you loved so much. So much you'll do anything for their welfare. 

"What's the matter Summer? Why so quiet." He chortled, the coolness of his voice sent chills in my body. 

"I..." I suck a deep breath,  unsure what to say to him.

"I, what? Come on you are better than that. You're firing all pistol the last time we met. Where is that fierce cold blooded bitch I saw that day?" His slow walk to approach me was like a predator circle his prey.

He really hates me that much; his insulting word was slicing me painfully. 

"I did what did because I have to," I mumbled.

"It's okay you know, " he chuckled. I would have been placated by his words, but looking at his face tells otherwise. "The score is on tie we needed a tie breaker," that confused and made me nervous without even hearing his explanation. 

I back away toward my car while he stalks me. "What do you mean?"

"Revenge, " he whispered right in front of my face. 

"Trench"

"Stop saying my name," he growled,  "you lost the right to utter it."

"If you just know the reason why I ende-"

He cut me off. "I don't wanna hear it, just prepare what's coming to you." 

He was about to turn around when I grip his elbow to face me again. As soon as our skin made contact,  the sparks that was lost all these years ignited. It only lasted a second because he was withdrawing from my touch. "Don't touch me!" he raged. His eyes blazing with outrage and something else I couldn't name.

"I'm beg-"

"Mommy," a tiny voice interrupted me.

Trench(POV)

A little girl interrupted whatever she was about to tell me. The panic in Summer's face was hard not to notice. It must be the thought that I saw the evidence of her moving on so fast on me. The girl was two or three, which means not even a month of my departure Summer had been carelessly fucking whoever guy she had been with. That she was knock off. And here is it the evidence in front of my eye. Her daughter that looks like her. An splitting image. Same face, same eye colors and same black hair.

This just poured lemon in my wound that wouldn't heal. Summer's sight was already unbearable. I wanted to just pulled her to my chest and show her how much I'm yearning for her company again. It was almost impossible for me to act like a hate and vengeful person in front of her, but I made it. I fooled her.

Yet, the sight of her daughter was just too much for me to take in.

I lost her twice now and it seems like I will lose her for good.

"You should go," I snapped at Summer. My temper was flaring and I didn't want to display how loss control in front of a child.

"I'm sorry," she whispered so low that the incoming sob from her was overhead. 

Just hearing it made me want to take back everything that frightened her earlier. I let my emotions overtake my entire actions when I saw her. I panic so bad I ended up screwing things.

God I still love this girl for crying out loud. Despite of the pain I endured for the last years, I'm willing for another torture just to see her even if I couldn't have her. Her sigjt is enough for me to go through my days.

She opened her car's door, stood there for a moment to wipe the tears that escaped her eyes, threw me a quick glance before entering the old car. Where the hell is her honda? This car she is driving right now looks fucking cheap and battered. 

The car was moving when I steal another glance at Summer. To find out, her daughter was staring at me, she had a smile in her face and her hands was waving me goodbye. My hand twitch to wave back before common sense hit me. Should I be acting like I'm angry with the world? How can a small girl that came from the person I love the most made me forgot for that at the moment?

Is every person connected to her have this power over me? God I'm pathetic.

I'm pathetic enough that I keep replaying what I felt earlier when she touch me. Just the simple touch did giddy, exciting and thrilling things inside of my body. Those emotions were I've been looking since the last time I saw her. No one ever gave me those for the last years until she came back in my life again. Come to think of it, those feelings didn't really go away,  they are still there staying dormant like a volcano only to come in the open when that one stimuli made it presence to stir it to life. 

But despite all I felt, I'm not still happy...

The only way I can be happy again is have her beside me. And I think that would never happen.  She's taken, settled and has a daughter. Add Kilt's existence in the picture. When I saw them talking, I thought I will lose it back there. Of all the guy in the world,  why did she choose tha douche. By their forlorn expression awhile back, I guess douchebag didn't want anything to do with their daughter. 

Their daughter...

Why did that sound stirred outburst inside me?

Oh yeah co'z I want my girl back.

God damn you Kilt!

Maybe I should kill him and get Summer. The daughter can stay as long as I'll be with the mother.

Yeah, I guess that will be my brilliant plan in the future. 



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