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Chapter 56

Chapter 56

I finally left the building after spending almost half an hour inside Trench's office. The constant ringing of my phone told me my family is getting restless not knowing what's happening to me. After hearing Trench's threat on Charles I just took off shouting instructions at mom to take care of Myles for a while while I sort out whatever the demanding man on the other side of the phone wants. I didn't brought any cupcakes for the secretary who ordered it, my mind was full of frustration all I was thinking when I came speeding here is to snap at him. I really don't care if I'd land myself into trouble. I just want to get over whatever is bothering Trench. 

He's inquiry too me off guard. What was that all about? How on earth did he know I am keeping probably the biggest secret in my life that very few people knew. Who would drop clues like that to him?

He has the right to know, Marty's voice rang inside my ears.

No, she can't be the one talking to him and blabbering what I told her not to tell. We have a pack and she swear on her godmother's duty she would never betray me for spreading information to the person that can put us at risk. No, not him, but his aristocrat of a father.

We can make it as a secret again, his voice rang. 

We could, but look what happened in high school.  Someone-some people were watching us from a distance without us knowing they are there just taking their precious time to confront us. And yeah I remember I mostly got hot lashing tongue in the end. Add that frightful intimidation Mr. Graysten sr. pulled off in our own house. And the disappointing conversation and argument I got into with my parents and brother when the armed men left. 

There are too many reason not to be sneaky again. Too much is at risk here.

And what about Kilt's involvement?

Did...did Trench think what I think he thought?

God, this is so mess up.

The only involvement Kilt belongs to is the Valerie's situation. How did Kilt come in Trench attention? 

I gasped so loud when I remembered the day when we both saw each other for the first time in years. He misinterpret everything that's why he keeps accusing me of sleeping with Kilt. 

But I never for once see guys as something interesting ever since I broke up with him. Those feelings of normal and wild teenager like I used to be when Trench wasn't in the picture never revived in me. Those feelings seemed to vanish into oblivion. 

The disinterest feature I supported after we fell apart transformed into concrete when one little precious angel came crashing in my life. My full attention is with her. I wanna make sure I wouldn't be sidetrack while Myles crave for my attention. 

But then he came back, and now my thoughts are divided between the two. I'm still in love with him despite the years passing by. He in return felt the same way. Some people who didn't know what cause this massive distance between the two us might think what's the reason from stopping me from fixing back the things that shouldn't have been destroyed from the first place. Well, it includes the safety of my family and him.

There has to be some kind of barrier between the two of us, it's the only way to keep the aristocrat away from hurting the people I loved the most.

This is my dilemma I'm facing for the rest of my life if I will let my heart, needs and bliss conquers me.

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Mom and Charles were frantic when I stepped inside the shop looking forlorn, lifeless and regretful. No matter what my heart tells me to stay with Trench for a little bit longer, I can't just act on it without suffering the consequences. I'm eager for his company. I'm eager for his hugs, kisses, attention,  sMyles, and so many more positive things I want to see everday for the rest of my life.