14 Years [GNR/Mötley Crüe]

31. Somebody Save Me

Nadia:

I have been playing for about 4 weeks now. Yep, I started again. Surprisingly I haven't given up so far. I started to realize I was actually pretty good earlier now when I see myself struggling to play some technical stuff which I used to play with ease earlier. My fingers were rebuilding the strength and calluses. Dad told me I could use one of his super strat until mine gets shipped. Like Axl said if I don't pick it up now I would regret not doing it in another 20 some years if I am alive. It wasn't easy, picking it up, it was basically a long process of me mentally fighting myself before picking up Slash's guitar while he wasn't there. The weird thing about all these was until dad let me use his I was using Slash's guitar and he never said a word against it. whereas I imagined him to get pissed off.

We were in New York today. I don't know how I feel about being back here. Last time I was here nothing went well for me.

I was sitting in Vince's dressing room. They were about to go next immediately after the crew redid the Stage.

"Are you looking for any job?" He asked me as he tried to tease his hair and hold it up with aquanet.

"I am. But I guess I suck so much no one wants to hire me." I replied

He didn't reply anything to that.

"Hey, so...... what do you think of Sharise?" He cocked an eyebrow at my reflection in the mirror.

"What about her?"

"You think I should make things official with her? Like I love her, I do, but do you think she is the right choice?" He asked with a bit of hesitation.

I know Vince. If he even build up the courage to ask me my opinion about her, that means he was actually pretty serious about her. Besides, I have met her a few times and she seemed really nice well except for the times she caught him cheating on her. Obviously.

"You gonna propose?" I asked with a bit of excitement in my voice.

"Don't tell anyone. I got the ring. I was thinking you know last gig of the tour is in LA, I could make her come to the show and do it." He said with a shy smile.

"Ooh, someone is blushing, oh wait it's Barbie!" I said doing my most dramatic expression of being surprised.

"Shut up! Okay, so you think she will say yes?" He asked

"Of course she will say yes. She wouldn't say no to Barbie." I answered with a grin plastered on my face.

"Okay thank you, VERMIN." He said emphasizing the last word before we broke out laughing.

But I wish I could tell him to keep it in his pants as well but I know that would only be a waste of time.

Interrupting our laughter we heard a knock on the door and Vince approached it. It was Doc, show time.........

I continued to remain in Vince's dressing room messing around with my new guitar and tiny amp.

Suddenly the door swung open and I saw Axl walk in holding on to a small duffel bag. I smiled at him and stopped playing, muting the strings with fingers to stop the electronic disturbance noise.

"Hey! How's the practice going?" He asked

"It's fine, it feels kinda fun now.... again." I replied

"I told you it would feel good, I am glad you decided to pick it up again."

"You know but what I find really surprising is how Slash reacted so nicely when he saw me playing his. Like seriously no one likes it when someone else touches their instruments but he was being so nice..." I said to which he just gave me a smile.