14 Years [GNR/Mötley Crüe]

37. Blonde On Blonde

San Diego:

Nadia:

"I am going to steal that fur coat someday," I said pulling at the emerald-long fur coat he was wearing along with black leather pants and no shirt underneath the coat. We just came off stage. I have been playing with them for a week now.

He just held on a smug grin and shook his head.

"What? You have to trust me when I say I am gonna steal it." I said trying to hold my laugh.

"Yeah, she does steal. That shirt is mine and I don't even know when she stole it." I heard Nikki say to Tommy

Well.......... it was his shirt. I stole it a few months back when he threw a party in his hotel room.

"Yeah, I learned from you. Tommy even you started stealing after meeting Nikki right?" I asked as I felt Axl pull me into his lap and wrap the fur coat around me as well.

"I don't mind sharing though." He whispered in my ear as I entwined my fingers with his which were enhanced with multiple rings, underneath the coat.

"I know dude. Seriously it was after meeting Nikki even I started stealing." Tommy said astonished at the thought that Nikki was turning the rest of us into klepto's.

I could feel the sweat pouring out of his chest soak the back of my shirt which used to be Nikki's. We were sharing mostly the same hotel rooms and he hasn't fucked any groupies and I haven't fucked anyone else either. But we are still in a sort of testing zone.

Vince proposed to Sharise today in between our set. She accepted it. Well, it was really sweet. Who wouldn't accept?

"Boys, come out for a minute, I need to talk to y'all. There is a message from Geffen." Alan walked in.

Gently lifting me off of his laps and handing me the fur coat he walked away with the rest of his band. He is never gonna get this coat again.

Wearing it over my shoulders, it was actually pretty big, I mean I should have understood that when it was able to wrap around both of us earlier. But it was long too, it almost touched my ankles. I sat back on the couch and looked at the only two guys left in the room. Things were kind of awkward naturally. The three of us still talk to each other and shit but no one has brought up the topic of Nikki being into me romantically again. And not talking about it wasn't doing any good.

"So......... You and him?" Tommy cocked an eyebrow at me.

We haven't even kissed in front of others, but I guess all of these is enough to cause a suspicion in everyone's eyes. Well, I don't have to hide anything. Just say the truth.

"I don't know, we are just testing the waters....... if it works it works...... we aren't even giving it any labels." I said shrugging my shoulders as if it was no big deal.

"I am sorry, but I don't understand. You said no to me cos' of him? Why are you doing this with him....... again? He hurt you last time right?" Nikki scoffed

"I know dude. I think you are making a mistake. He is just toxic." Tommy added rolling his eyes

What the hell is wrong with these guys? Why are they suddenly turning against him? Also, I didn't even think about Axl when I said no to Nikki. Even if nothing happened between me and Axl my answer to Nikki would have still been the same. Why does he have to fuck everything up?!? Our relationship was perfectly fine as friends.

"Yeah.... but.. but that was years ago. Also, it was really fucking stupid." I shrugged. I could even call that day the biggest mistake of my life. Maybe even the most self-destructive. She was never there for me unlike him and I know he wouldn't do anything to hurt me yet that day I pushed him away from me. I don't know or even realize why I did that but all I know is that I haven't gotten rid of that habit. I was still pushing away anyone who cared for me, maybe like Evie used to say, it's probably my toxic coping mechanism. Push them away before they can push me away.