Hearing my words

Chapter 18

Can was waiting for Sanem at the restaurant, he was nervous, pacing the lobby, hands running through his hair and down his face. He watched as a taxi pulled up and Sanem opened the door, she leaned over and paid the driver, smiling at him as if they were old friends. He smiled, that was Sanem always finding a way to make someone's day nicer.

She opened the door and walked in, stopping abruptly when she seen Can, her heart was pounding, hands sweaty and her breaths were coming fast. She made herself take several deep breaths and tried to calm down. She had wondered how she would feel when she saw him. She  knew she would be nervous, but seeing him made her want to rush into his arms, her heart was about to burst. He looked good, a little thinner, his hair longer. 

She smiled at him and he walked to her and wrapped her in his arms. She couldn't breathe, it felt right to be in his arms again. How she had missed his hugs, how he always smelled her neck and played with her hair. He held her tighter to him as if she were his lifeline.

"Sanem" he whispered "I was so afraid you would never want to see me again."

"Can." she had tears in her eyes, he still had not let go of her, still holding her as close as he could. "Can, I can't breathe."

"Oh, sorry, it's just" he started to say something but stopped.

"I know Can, I know."  He finally let her go and looked her over.

"You look beautiful, more beautiful than I remember."

"Thank you. You look better than I thought you would."  he scrunched his eyebrows together "Leyla and Ayhan have been telling me how you were, well, they just told me things."

"I was a mess without you. I couldn't do anything, hardly worked, ate when your Anne forced food in my mouth." he laughed "Your Anne took good care of me, even though she could have told me to get lost."

"Oh, Can, she loves you like a son."  Just then the hostess walked up and told them their table was ready. They followed her to the table, others in the restaurant following them with their eyes, they were a stunning couple, both beautiful people.

When they sat and the waiter took their drink order, Can took hold of her hands "I can't seem to stop touching you, I need to touch you. I hope you don't mind."

"No, I don't mind, it feels good."

They talked about what had been going on in their lives like two old friends meeting up. After they finished they dinner, they sat and talked a little longer then Can took the first step.

"Sanem, I am so sorry how I treated you at the hut. You were right to walk away, I had lost focus on the truth because I was so angry about the cream. It's funny, Polen was the one who put me in my place. But, I think it took you walking away to make me realize that the cream was not or ever would be as important as you."

"Can, this was not the first time you spoke to me this way, and I understand that I did my part in what caused you to be angry with me but you never listened just blamed. It was as if you were just looking for something so that you had an excuse to leave me."

"I can't say you are wrong, I have been this way for so long that when I really fell in love, when I knew you loved me, it was as if I couldn't believe you would love me. How could someone as sweet and kind as you love me." he stopped "Osman, asked me why I loved you and why the cream was so important to me. I told him that the cream was my first memory of you, when we kissed that night, your scent had me mesmerized, I knew you were not the person I was suppose to meet there, I had kissed a stranger and I couldn't get you off my mind. Do you remember the day at the agency when you were talking to Guilz and CeyCey about the bosses?" she nodded yes, afraid to say a word, afraid he would stop talking "When you turned and looked at me, all I could do was ask Allah to please let you be the girl I kissed. Then at my house when you tried to run away, I smelled your scent and I knew. It wasn't your scent that necessarily made me love you it was your scent that allowed me to find you. That is why it means so much to me."