Hearing my words

Chapter 38

Sanem had decided to work on getting her studio in order, since she wasn't meeting Leyla for lunch, she had plenty of time to clean and get all her supplies arranged. While she was out shopping with Deniz over the weekend, she found a floor lamp, a small table lamp and a loveseat that would fit nicely in the studio.  Bulut had told her there were extra chairs in one of the storage areas and she had found a chair that was perfect to use at the table while making her creams or writing.

She was putting some final touches in the room when her phone pinged with a message. She smiled as she seen Can's text. "I could really use a friend right now."

She dialed his number and he answered on the first ring "Babek"

"Can, are you ok?" she asked "Leyla told me that Huma was at the agency but she didn't have time to tell me much else."

"I need you Sanem, I need to hold your hand, hold you in my arms and feel your goodness."

She sighed at his words, he sounded so devastated "Please can you meet me at the mountain hut?"

She didn't give it a second thought "Evet, I need to shower and change then I will meet you there."

"Thank you" he whispered.

She finished what she was doing, then quickly went to her cabin, showered and changed. She packed a small bag just on case, knowing that it would be cooler at night, she packed a heavy sweater and a change of clothes for the next day.

While she was waiting for her taxi to arrive, she wrote a note to Mirhiban so that she wouldn't worry.  she knew if she spent the night away without saying so that the others would be concerned. She slipped the note under the door and then walked to the drive as the taxi pulled up. 

She arrived at the hut, but she didn't notice Can's truck so she thought she must have beat him there but as she rounded the corner she heard the sound of the ax hitting the logs. She stood and watched him for a few minutes then coughed to let him know she was there. He dropped the ax as he turned toward her, she walked swiftly into his arms and let him hold her for a long time. 

Can held her as tight as he could without hurting her, playing with her hair and placing his nose in the crook of her neck. Her warmth and scent making him feel as if he were no longer lost. Sanem didn't say a word, just stood there while Can held her in his arms. She could feel him trembling, whether with anger or hurt she wasn't sure but she knew he needed her. Needed her arms for protection, to know someone cared, to feel love.

She wasn't sure what had happened but she knew it must have been really bad, Can was the strongest person she knew and he looked defeated. Finally he loosened his hold on her and kissed both  cheeks. The afternoon air was cooling ever so slightly so he led her to the fire he  had already started and helped her sit down.

"Do you want to talk about what happened?"

"No, not yet. I just want to keep the ugliest out of this place for as long as I can."

"Then we shall sit and do just that, let me go make us some tea and then we can sat and doing nothing for as long as you need."

She stood up to go into the hut, Can grabbed her hands "Sanem, thank you." was all he said, she nodded and smiled and then walked inside. The thoughts in her head going a thousand miles a minute.

It was at this time her inner voice spoke "I have never seen him this way. Be gentle with him today Sanem." She looked up at her voice only able to shake her head in agreement. She found some cheese and grapes, added them to the tray of tea and walked back out to Can.

She stopped to look at him, his shoulders slumped, his head down, she could feel the anger coming off him in waves but that wasn't all she felt, she felt his sadness and hurt. What had Huma possibly done to him this time.  She went over and sat down beside him, offered him the cup of tea and did just what he wanted, sat with him, holding his hand, trying to make him feel her love.