Creature Of A Broken Past (Undertaker x Reader)

Chapter 57: Hurt By My Future

I woke up with tears in my eyes as my heart was literally tearing to shreds. This was by far the worst pain I have ever gone through. How could he do that? How could he just leave and abandon his own family?! I thought he loved me?!

I felt a hand being placed on my hips and kisses being placed on the back of my shoulder. “Hey, good morning there, sunshine. What’s wrong?” It was him... What?! But how?!?

I quickly turn around to face him, and he was indeed right next to me, looking down at me with a worried look. “Adrian... You came back!!” I struggle to say in the midst of my meltdown. I immediately grab onto him and hold him for dear life. Never wanting to let go.

“Baby, what are you talking about? I never left!” He says as he holds on to me. What?.... Was it just a dream?! Oh, thank heavens! I begin crying even more as I’m relieved that never really happened. But now I was scared that it will end up coming true.

“Amora, sweetheart, what is going on?!” He questions with extreme worry. I try to begin explaining, but I knew I was talking too fast, and I knew I wasn’t making any sense to him as it’s impossible to speak when you’re crying as hard as I was.

“Amora-”

“O-our r-relationship w-was f-fall-ing a-part-”

“Amora-”

“Y-you e-end-ed u-up l-leav-ing-”

“Amora! Please slow down, I can’t understand a word you are saying! Calm down for me, please!” He shouts as he picks me up and holds me tight into his chest. But I seemed to be crying even more!

Just then Luna came barging into the bedroom. “What the heck is going on?! Undertaker, why is she crying so badly?!” She questions worriedly as she’s shouting over my cries. “I don’t know, Luna! She woke up like this, I’m trying to get her to calm down and explain to me what’s happening!”

“Did she have a-”

“It’s really starting to terrify me, Luna! Just, please leave us alone until I get her settled down!... Amora, baby, please calm down! This is extremely dangerous for the baby, please...” I was struggling so much to calm myself down, but I was starting to feel horrible as I was starting to make him cry. I can hear it in his voice that he was keeping his own tears back. He is beyond worried for me, and I can’t even get myself to calm down!

He seems to be reaching over for something before straightening himself back up and I barely see him handing me my favorite flowers from last night. He took them out of the vase just to help me settle down, and I shakily grab hold of them and hold them close to me.

“Baby, please... Think of little bean.” He says as he places his hand on my stomach. He then reaches for my hand and places it over my stomach with his hand above mine.

“Little bean is right here, alright? I’m begging you to calm down for us. Please? I promise everything is going to be alright! Was it a dream?? If so, it’s alright now, I’m right here, baby. Little bean is here too.” His voice was getting softer and quieter with each word he was saying.

I look back at the flowers and bring them closer to my face. They always calm me down. And I needed to calm down. As he was gently laying his head over mine, I feel myself beginning to slowly calm down.

After a few more minutes, I was almost completely settled down, and I stroke my thumb across his fingers as we were still holding our hands over my stomach.

“My love, this little bean was made by you and me together. It is quite literally our little miracle. We need to treat it with such care. We need to treat you with great care. But not only because you are growing our little miracle, but because without you, we wouldn’t even be experiencing this. You are my greatest miracle. I love you so much, Amora.” He says as he places a kiss to my head.

“I-I can say the s-same thing about you, darling.” I say as I look up at him. “I couldn’t do this without y-you either. You are my miracle as well. I love you too, Adrian.” He then smiles before giving me a gentle kiss.

I was starting to become nauseous again as he begins to lightly stroke my cheek. Worrying about my dream that I had. I don’t want it to come true.

“Tell me, my dear. But slowly so you don’t end up crying like you were. It really scared me, baby. What had you so upset?” He asks carefully.

I try thinking of the best way to explain without having another meltdown. “It was a total nightmare... It started 5 years after we had gotten married. After we married, you started finding ways for me to carry a baby successfully, as... We ended up losing this one.” After saying that, I started to cry again.

“Shh, honey. It’s okay, just take in deep breaths, alright?” He says worriedly. I try doing as told before continuing on.

“So in the 5 years of being married, we ended up having 4 children. 3 boys and a girl. With the girl... She completely had you wrapped around her finger, and every time she would get into trouble, she would run to you where she knew you wouldn’t punish her. So I guess in a way... You never changed in my whole life of knowing you, because you were the same with me when I was growing up.” I lightly chuckle at the thought, and he giggles as well.

“You’ve always been very dear to me, sweetie. I loved you when you were growing up, and I love you even more, but in a much different way now.” He says lovingly as he looks down at me and smiles.

“We named her Clarisse. She was the... I hate to even say this, but she was the worst child out of the 4 we had. She refused to ever listen to me. She would always act like either I didn’t exist, or that I wasn’t the boss of her...

I didn’t know where you had been half the time, and I was at my wits end with her... After destroying the kitchen that I had been trying to clean for some time, I sent her to her room and not to come out until I said so...

As I was finishing the dishes, you had finally appeared and wrapped your arms around me from behind...” I was starting to cry even more by this point. “Take in some deep breaths again, baby. It’s going to be alright. I'm right here.” I take in a few deep breaths again before I continue.

“It was something you hadn’t done in so long. I guess about a year? We barely kissed like we do anymore. We hardly even had a sex life. Like our relationship was almost completely gone. So I had started crying as I had felt your embrace that I thought had been long gone.”

“Sweetheart-”

“You told me you would finish cleaning everything and had me go take a break and relax. And you would have a real and actual talk with Clarisse...

When I had gotten to our bedroom and onto the bed, I broke down. Because I didn’t know where we even were in our relationship. I don’t remember fighting so much. Just us... Drifting apart I guess.”

“Baby-”

“I cried my heart out for maybe a half an hour before falling asleep... We still managed to share the same bed and room still, but we never acted like a real couple like anybody else.

When I woke up, you were climbing into bed with me. Apologizing how you had been making me feel for the past year. Unloved or uncared for... You’d promise that your love for me had never changed. That you had still loved me as much as you did... When our relationship was still new. Like right now.

You promised me you would start giving me more attention and affection again. And we finally made love like we used to. For the first time in who knows how long.” As I continued to explain, I saw the hurt in his eyes, and I was trying so hard not to cry even more. So I took in more deep breaths before I continued on.

“Then the next thing I know... It’s a few years later down the road, and our relationship was basically nonexistent. We were fighting a lot. The kids were driving me insane by not listening and I never knew where you were! We had another fight, with me saying all I do is cook and clean, clean after the kids and everything else with no help at all... That I felt completely unappreciated and you went on to say you help out too, that I never showed any love for you either...”

“Amora, calm down, please. I don’t want you crying as bad as you were.” He says softly. But I continued to cry anyway. “You went on to say that you wished... To which I interrupted with ‘wish what, that we never got together?’...

You answered that you wish everything was back to where they used to be. Which I again asked without me and the kids? Back to where you were alone?!”

“Amora-”

“You answered with ‘I guess if that’s what you want!’ Then you stormed out of the house and left!” I was crying so much by this point. “I tried getting you to stop, but you were already gone!

Next thing I know, it had been days since you left! You never came back or called or anything! Then the days turned into weeks, then months!! I would go out to look for you, but to no luck!”

“Baby, please-”

“My heart was so broken, Adrian! It broke beyond repair as I had lost you forever! You were never coming back, and I was so alone and taking care of the kids by myself!”

“Baby-”

“That’s why I woke up crying so badly when I seen you! I thought the dream was real and you had finally returned! And once I realized it was only a dream, it became even worse as I don’t want it to end up coming true!! I don’t want to lose you, Adrian! I don’t want to have any kids if it’s only going to tear us apart-”

“Baby, calm down, please! Everything is going to be just fine, I promise you that! I would never just abandon you, Amora. I will never abandon you or our children! It was just a dream-”

“But the other dream I had came true! Who’s to say this won’t end up happening either!?”

“Amora, I will give you my absolute word that I will make damn sure that will never happen! I will do everything in my power to make absolute sure you know just how much you mean to me and just how much I love you today, tomorrow, and each and every day that we spend together. For the rest of eternity, baby. You must believe me.” He says quietly as he’s holding back his own tears.

“Adrian... I don’t want to lose you-” But before I could even finish that sentence, a huge wave of nausea hits me, making me rush into the bathroom to throw up. Almost immediately I hear him rushing in to comfort me.

“Amora, princess. I would never in a million years leave you. I couldn’t. And I never would even want to.” He says as he pulls back my hair for me.

Once I was finished, he lightly brushes his fingers through my hair. “And I’m not leaving you alone like this today... Where might your phone be, Dearie?” He asks softly. “There’s one in the kitchen... Why?” I ask a bit shakily.

“I’m going to call that doctor I’ve been working with. Let him know I’m not coming in today.”

“Adrian-”

“Amora, you come first in my life! You are everything to me. When you’re sick like this, I’m going to take care of you! And most definitely when you’re carrying little bean and sick, without a doubt you will come first... I will be right back, princess.” He places a kiss to the top of my head before exiting out of the bathroom.

I slowly stand myself up and walk over to the sink to rinse my mouth out. When I was done, I head back into my bedroom just as he finished getting himself dressed. He immediately notices me and helps me over to the bed and lays me down.

“It is still pretty early, sweetheart. Even if I did go to work, it wouldn’t be for another 2 hours yet. But I am still going to give him a call quick.” He says as he covers the blanket over me. “Try to get some more sleep. I will be right back as soon as I finish with the call, alright?” He assures me as he pushes my hair out of my face. “Alright.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.” Giving me a gentle kiss, he walks out of the room to make the call.