Creature Of A Broken Past (Undertaker x Reader)

Chapter 23: My Nightmare

⚠TRIGGER WARNING!!! ⚠
I know I haven't put any warnings in past chapters, but I will in this one. If you've ever been in abusive situations or gone through sexual assault I STRONGLY advise you skip to the next chapter. Other than that, I hope you'll like this chapter 🖤

I woke up screaming in complete terror. The room was dark, and for the moment I didn’t know where I was, making me panic even more. At this point, I thought I was actually going to die from fear alone.

Crying, screaming for help, and unable to breath properly, I feel a pair of arms trying to wrap around me. I didn’t know who it was, and I try fighting them off, until I heard that all familiar voice. Then, light appears from the candles and I see it was only Undertaker.

“Love, hey it’s only me! It’s okay, you’re alright now.” He says soothingly. He gently places his hand to the side of my neck below my ear, and speaks softly into my other. “It’s only a bad dream, my love. You’re safe now, I promise.”

I couldn’t stop from crying, and he lays us back down. He props himself up slightly over me as he tries to calm me down. Wiping my tears away, he places gentle kisses where they had been. I tightly grab onto both of his arms, scared to let go. Scared that he was just going to disappear, leaving me alone again.

“My sweetest love, I’m not going anywhere, I promise you that, okay?” I try nodding my head, as I couldn’t speak just yet. “I love you, Amora. Please don’t cry, it hurts me to see you like this. You’re too beautiful to cry, love.”

“I-I’m s-sorry-”

“Don’t be sorry, my love. There’s nothing to be sorry about. Everything is going to be alright.” Letting go of his arms, I bring my hands to each side of his face, and he leans down and kisses me softly.

“I love you so much, more than you can ever imagine.” He says after he pulls away and looks deep into my eyes. “I-I love you t-too.” I manage to say out. “Are you going to be alright?” He asks sweetly.

“Y-yes, thank you.” He gives a light smile. “Anything for you, my love.” He says as he leans more into my hand. I gently pull him down and give him another kiss, and he deepens it. I wrap my arms around his neck, and he moves a little more above me, but not too much.

Soon, he pulls away and looks at me. “What’s on your mind, love?” He asks as he notices my expression. “I’m just scared...”

“About what?” He asks, and I hesitate to answer. “That one of these days I’m going to make you want to leave. That you’ll get sick of my nightmares-”

“Dearie-”

“I wasn’t always like this! They only just started again recently-”

“Love-”

“I’m broken! I know nobody wants to be with someone who is-”

“Amora!” He practically shouts, and I stop immediately. “I love you, okay? It’s not going to bother me one bit how you are! I know what you’ve been through, I understand! I’m not going to get sick of you, or leave you. If I didn’t want to be with you, I would have never asked you to be mine... Even if you’re broken, I’ll keep your pieces safe. And I will gladly place them back together, no matter how many times I may have to pick them up again, I will do it for you! Because I love you-”

“Undertaker-”

“I want to tell you something, okay? Believe me when I say this...” He takes my hand and holds it in between both of his. “You have a special place in my heart that no one can ever have. There is just something really special about you that I can’t quite explain.” He then grins as he looks directly in my eyes.

“I wish I had a thousand words for love, but all that comes to mind is you. And if I’m to be completely honest, there is my heart... And then there’s you. And I’m not sure if there is a difference.”

“You’re not just saying that-”

“Absolutely not. I mean that in every way possible. You have to be truly special to have been able to steal my heart as fast as you did. I’m not exactly whole either, love. I’ve been broken as well. I get it. I truly do. I’m far from whole. But you have been placing some pieces back together for me without even knowing it. And I will do the same for you.” I was now speechless. How the hell am I supposed to respond to that?! He then chuckles.

“You don’t have to, love. I just wanted to let you know just how much you mean to me. That will never change.” He leans down and kisses me once more.

“You don’t have to tell me... But what was your dream about?” He asks as he pulls away. “W-well... It was about what happened last night. After being let out of the cage, and being taken to the person that bought me, he told me when we were leaving that... We were going to... Have fun later on.” I said the last part quietly as I look away.
“Amora-”

“I kept screaming out for you, Ciel, and even Sebastian! But nobody ever came. Finally, I had remembered about my sword, and I struggled immensely trying to reach for it. When I finally did, I of course killed him.” I struggled to keep the tears back. “After I had killed him, he seemed to have come back. He got up and took me to his home. He was just about to have his way-” He quickly makes me look back over to him and presses his lips to mine for a few seconds before pulling away. When he looks down at me, I seen pain and hatred in them, almost terrifying me.

“I’m so sorry I asked. I’m so glad I got to you when I did. He’s gone now, love. He can’t hurt you anymore. If you hadn’t killed him... I think I would be going after him right now.” He then notices my expression, and he sighs as he looks away.

“Can I get you anything, love?” He asks as he turns back to me. “N-no. I don’t want you to leave me alone...”

“I won’t, I promise.” We both kept quiet after that, neither of us really knew what to do next. After another moment, he sits himself up and leans against the wall. He then gestures for me to as well. As I sit up, he pulls me into him, having me sit between his legs. Wrapping his arms around me, he leans us back and rests his head beside mine.

“I’m sorry for waking and keeping you up.” I almost whispered. “Love, it’s okay, really. I just want to make you feel better, and right now... I’m at a loss. If anyone should be apologizing, it’s me. What I want to do, I can’t... Because I’m terrified I’ll end up hurting you. That’s the last thing I ever want.”

“What do you mean?” I questioned. “I just want to make you happy. But I can only limit myself. I’m scared if I do too much of something... I might give you the wrong impression.” I turn my head to look up at him, and I can tell he was hurt as he looked at me as well.

“You’re absolutely beautiful, love. When I’m kissing you, I just can’t get enough. But I don’t want to push it too far, or make you think I’m trying to get something out of it. Believe me I’m not-”

“Undertaker, I trust you! Please don’t worry about it. If I become uncomfortable with something I will let you know. Just as I did in the bathroom... But I was only feeling uncomfortable because I only had a single towel around me. You didn’t ignore my wishes, you left immediately afterwards. That told me right then and there that I can trust you! So please, you don’t have to worry.” He finally gives me a smile.

“You really mean that?” Though I meant exactly what I said, I decided to put it to a test for him to see for himself. Sitting myself up, I turn completely around to face him. I discreetly take in a deep breath as I couldn’t believe I was about to do this, I place my hands to each side of his face and go in to kiss him.

Deepening the kiss, I start feeling the butterflies again. I feel myself melting into the kiss, and I move my hands around his neck, pulling him into me.

I was soon starting to fall backwards, and he brings his hands down to my mid back as if to catch me. I then pull him more into me, making him lay on top of me, never breaking the kiss.

It then becomes more passionate and loving, and I bring my hands down to his back. I start to feel him relax, and he breaks the kiss only to place his lips to my cheek and neck. Starting to feel slightly uncomfortable, I knew I can still trust him, so I allow for him to continue.

He brings his hands to my hips and I kiss him on his neck. After a few more seconds he stops and looks into my eyes. “I love you, Amora. But I must stop here. I’m not going to give you the wrong idea.” He slightly smiles. I couldn’t help but have this stupid grin on my face.

“What?” He asks. “I just made you answer your own question.” I giggle. He gives me a confused look. “What do you mean?”

“You asked me if I really meant what I said, so I decided to put you to the test for you to see for yourself. You passed just as I thought you would.” He then laughs.

“That’s a dirty trick, love. But as I said, I’m not going to give you any wrong ideas. I refuse to hurt you.”

“You can’t give me any wrong ideas when you just proved to me you can control yourself. I trust you completely, I know you won’t ever hurt me.”

“My love, you have no idea how much that means to me.” He smiles, and I return the smile. He kisses me once more, but only briefly. “I’m serious though, we should stop before either of us get too excited. I’m not saying I won’t be able to control myself any longer after that point, I just want to wait until the time is right.” He says, and I just look deep into his eyes.

“What is it?” I then smile. “Well... We are now even. You just so happened to steal my heart as well.”

“Is that so? I promise I’ll take good care of it. Knowing I’d be your first, I want to make it special, love.” I then realized something, and I start to feel pained.

“Love, what’s wrong?” Not wanting to answer, I look away. “Hey, love, what is it? You know you can tell me.” He speaks softly. I feel a tear escape, and he makes me look over at him. “Please tell me?”

“How would I be able to give you my first.... If it’s already been stolen?” I whisper out, unsure if he even heard me. “You want to know how, you say? It may not be your first time, but it will be your first consensual. That’s all that matters to me. As I told you before, you deserve to be treated beyond better than how you were. Anything less is unacceptable. I meant every word, love. I promise you I will make it special.”

“You really know how to make a girl smile, don’t you?” I smile. “No, just you. I only ever want to see you smile.” He gives me another kiss. “Do you feel ready to go back to sleep? I’m starting to become concerned, my dear. You have not been getting much of it.”

“I know, and I do feel bad. Because I’m also causing you to lose sleep. I do apologize.”

“My love. Don’t apologize, but will you promise me something?” He asks sweetly. “Of course.” I smile. “Please sleep in as much as you’d like. I’ll take you out afterwards, I’m in no rush. Alright?”

“For you, I will.” I answered. “Thank you.” We both sit up, so we can go back to bed. After getting under the covers, I move closer to him. “I love you, Amora. Goodnight.”

“I love you too, goodnight.” With one more kiss, I try getting some more sleep.