Euphoria | BTS (Bangtan Sonyeondan)

"You do this to me, Eleanor..."

The rest of the ride to the venue consists of Jungkook clinging on to me as he's asleep. He's so adorable. Feeling him next to me is so comforting. Yoongi ends up falling asleep as well but there's no way I can sleep. My mind is running a million miles a minute. I see Yoongi's head sliding down the window as he tries to find a place to lean comfortably. I reach over to him and place his head on my other shoulder. He almost instantly burrows his face into my hair and neck. I can feel his soft breathes hitting the skin of my neck and I feel the goosebumps raise all over my body.

I look over toward JK and reach over to gently, push the brim of his bucket hat up a little bit so I can see his face. He looks like an absolute angel. His lips are slightly puckered and he lets out soft moans as he dreams of god knows what. I run my fingers across his forehead to push his hair aside. His lips are so perfect, I find myself just wanting to kiss them. I turn and look over at Yoongi and he's out like a light and leaned against my shoulder so I decide to be brave.

I take my hand, place my fingers under JK's chin and bring his face up so he's easily accessible to me. Without moving my whole body, I lean my head down and place my lips on his; electricity runs through my whole body and I sigh into his mouth. Almost instantly, I feel him react- he pushes his face further up toward me and wraps his lips around mine; completely enveloping me in him. His hand reaches up toward my face and his fingers wrap around my neck. He lifts himself up so he's now above me and taking full control.

He pulls away slightly and opens his eyes to look at me. I can see the fire in his eyes. He looks passed me to see that Yoongi's head is leaned against my arm. He rolls his eyes and looks back at me. He leans into me and I feel his lips on my ear. I hear him let out a strained moan and he takes his hand to adjust at his tight fitting black jeans.

His soft pants ring in my ears and I can feel my face turn bright red. I close my eyes to try and focus on breathing so that Yoongi doesn't sense that I'm worked up or something is going on. He continues to moan in my ear lightly and then I feel him take my earlobe in between his teeth and gives it a little tug. I am having a difficult time staying still and focused and if he continues this way, Suga WILL wake up and probably won't be super excited about this. As I sat there thinking of Yoongi, my conscious started pestering me about being honest with JK about what happened earlier with Yoongi.

"JK..." I whisper as I turn my head toward him. " I think I should tell you something." I say.

"You don't have to..." he tells me as he's still whispering in my ear.

"No, I do think I need to," I continue.

"No. I don't want to know. Whatever happens between you and my hyung isn't important," he continues to whisper. "I can't do anything about it so I don't want to know..."he tells me as hear his voice tremble slightly. I turn to look at him and see his eyes are wide and glossy. Fuck, I did not think this was hurting him as much as it seems like it is.

"Jungkook..." I soften my voice and look him straight in the eyes. I lift my hand and place my thumb on the corner of his eye to try and remove any tears that may threaten to fall. I can't bare see him cry.

"I need you to know that what I feel for you is completely different," I tell him as I stroke his cheeks.

"What you do to me... I can't explain," I continue as I see a smile spread across his face.

"But..." I see his smile disappear slowly as his eyes burn into mine. "I can't sit here and honestly tell you that I don't feel anything for Suga," I add in but don't let my eyes leave his.

"It's important for me to be honest with you. You know that I think you and I are in different parts of our lives and we probably don't see eye to eye on what we want and I couldn't bare to be the one to hold you down from living your life and experiencing everything a man your age should. Your life should be carefree and fun and you're an idol... you have so much being offered to you. I'm not denying that what you make me feel is unlike anything I've ever felt before... you light something up in me but it would be so selfish of me to keep you because YOU make ME happy; You need to make You happy. Yoongi is closer in age to me; he has similar goals, a similar need to fulfill. We have so much in common; it's like he was made for me. We like the same music, read the same books, want the same things out of life, and my heart does feel something for him," I tell him before I lose the shred of bravery that I'm holding onto. "But you... oh, you." I sigh out, laying everything out for him. "You breathe air into my lungs. You bring excitement. You make me feel like I can live my life in the way I've always wanted. You light up every fiber inside me. I can't explain it... You just make me feel brand new," I tell him.