Euphoria | BTS (Bangtan Sonyeondan)

"She's Addicting..."

I open my eyes, surrounded by darkness. A calm and cool breeze hits me as the curtain over the window flutters and the moonlight dances against the wooden flooring. I realize that I'm in the boathouse and am so confused. What happened? I look at my watch and realize it's 2:00 am. It was 9:00 pm when we were setting up for dinner so I've been out for a while. I try and refocus my brain to try and see if I can remember anything and as I try and turn myself around, I realize I can't. I am blocked by a firm body pressed behind me. I lift my head and look around me and my heart immediately melts.

Laying behind me with an arm wrapped around my waist is Jungkook; his dark hair covering his eyes as he snores lightly. I follow the arm on JK's waist to see an angelic Jimin; cuddling into JK's back with his arm looped over his body, but his fingers grasping onto the excess fabric of my hoodie. I move my eyes down to see a mass of curls laying on Jimin's legs that belonged to my sweet Taehyung; who has one of his hands laying on my thigh. Right on Tae's belly, I see Hobi. His mouth slightly open, breathing deeply, and his foot laying gently over mine. My eyes continue on the journey around my bed to look toward my feet. I hadn't even felt him there before but right at my legs, with an arm wrapped around them is Seokjin. I want nothing more than to touch his face; he looks so innocent and childlike. Right next to Seokjin, barley hanging on, is Namjoon. Clumsy even in his sleep, his arm and leg hang off the side of the bed as his face is pressed firmly on the mattress and his other arm holding on to my ankles. Each and every one of them is holding on to me in whatever way they can. I feel my heart beat and all I can think about is how much I adore them.

I quickly realize that I'm missing Yoongi. I look around the room trying not to move around too much and that's when I see him. He's sitting on a chair next to the bed, covered by a dark shadow that makes him almost impossible to make out. His arm a crossed his chest and his head is hanging to the side. He looks incredibly uncomfortable but relaxed at the same time. I take a deep breath and lay my head gently back on the pillow. I feel Jungkook pull me even closer to him, refusing to let me go and like a domino affect, everyone else shifts slightly, pulling into each other.

While I feel overwhelmed and slightly anxious, I also feel inundated by the amount of love I feel for them; each and every one of them feed my soul in different ways. I close my eyes and my eyes start to well up; its not because of sadness or worry or anything negative, even though I'm suffocated by all those feelings, this emotion just happiness. Although I know there are things I need to be worried about, right now, all I can think about is how much I love them and would do absolutely anything to make them happy; I would give them the whole world if they asked me for it. I feel fingers wipe my cheeks and open my eyes to see Yoongi kneeled in front of my face. I smile at him and reach my own hand out to his face. I bring him toward me and kiss him. It never ceases to amaze me how he can instantly calm me. His touch is all I need to feel complete.

He pulls away and brings his finger up to his mouth, making a 'shhh' motion with his mouth. He leans over to Seokjin and lifts his arm up gently to release my legs. I bring them up as he lifts him and then once I've moved, he gently lays Jin's arm back down. He then focuses on the arm that's got a koala bear grip on my waist. Luckily, JK is a deep sleeper, so I'm not too worried about waking him. He untangles Jungkook's arms from my hoodie, lifts it and motions me with his other hand to slip out of the bed. Once I do, he places the pillow under JK's arm as a space holder. He shifts gently but exhales and let's out a small snore so we know he's still fully asleep.

I feel Yoongi's fingers interlace with mine as he leads me to follow him out of the room. He grabs the extra comforter that's folded in the closet and leads us outside. The crisp air causes a shiver to run down my spine and goosebumps scatter over my skin. We walk toward the dock where there are two chairs. He pushes the chairs as close together as he can and then motions at me to sit in one. As I sit, he crouches down and wraps the blanket around my legs, tucking the fabric around me so none of the cold air can get in. Then he sits next to me, wraps the other half of the blanket around himself and once he's settled, he brings his hand on to the arm rest and stretches his fingers out, gesturing at me to give him my hand. I smile and take my hand out of my sweater paw and wrap my fingers around his. We both look out at the lake; it's a breathtaking view. Everything is coated in the dark embers of the night, a calmness resting over nature.