"My heart is divided in 7 pieces and each of those pieces make me whole. Right here, in this very moment, nothing else fucking matters. The jealousy, the trauma, the drama, none of it means anything because you 7 are the only thing I need in life an...
The show goes off well. The guys put on an amazing show. I can definitely tell JK is distracted. He's not as interactive with the other members as he usually is and his face is sad. Honestly, it breaks my heart but what am I supposed to do when I'm broken too?
It's been around 15 minutes since the show ended. I decided to stick around afterwards and get some photos of some of the fans. These hometown shows were at amazing and these fans had the coolest signs and army bombs so I wanted to capture it to make a scrapbook for the guys at the end of the tour. Kind of like a memory book of all the things they may not have been able to see but will remind them of this tour. I finally turn off my camera and start making my way back to they green rooms when a group of fans catches my eye. They're waving at me and smiling; motioning me to go to them. I walk to them and they are all so excited to talk to me.
"Did you take the photo of Jungkook that they just posted on twitter?" One of the girls asks me. I look at her confused.
"I'm not sure," I say. "I haven't been on twitter today so I haven't seen what's been posted," I tell them.
She pulls her phone out and shows me and sure enough it's one of the photos I took of him the day we were in the forest. It's not even one of the ones from my camera, it's a photo I took of him with his phone while I was standing above him and I edited it to make it look like an old film camera. It was meant to be for my personal collection but obviously he decided to share it. I stare at the photo and then, read the caption:
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"Remember, sometimes lies try to separate us. Trials try to deceive us, but in times like that, focus on me. In the darkness, as long as there are us, it's enough. In the meaningless lies, as long as we are together, even the endless maze is a paradise" 📷: BTS Photographer POSTED 3 MINUTES AGO
My jaw drops and I can't believe it. He... he's making his own public declaration. He knows he can't say anything or mention me in public but this was his way of apologizing and asking me to trust him.
I look up from the phone and smile at the girls, they looked to be around 16 or 17.
"Yup, I took that one," I tell them.
"Oh my god. You're so talented. This is the most beautiful photo of him ever. I can't believe you get to take pictures like this of them! Are they nice? Do you get to hang out with them?" They all talk over each other, throwing every question they could think of at me.
I smile at them and watch them as they excitedly look at each other and jump up and down. "They're very nice and very hardworking. Thank you for your kind words. You're all so sweet," I say to them. Before I could leave the group of girls, I see Hyun-Jin is now behind me and he clears his throat at me.
"Ms. Eleanor, Mr. Min is searching for you," he tells me. I give him a slight nod and turn my attention back to the group of girls.
They're looking at me with their mouths wide open. And I smile at them.
