"My heart is divided in 7 pieces and each of those pieces make me whole. Right here, in this very moment, nothing else fucking matters. The jealousy, the trauma, the drama, none of it means anything because you 7 are the only thing I need in life an...
The following week goes by seemingly uneventfully. We spend most of the time playing video games, sleeping, eating, and just enjoying each other's company. We didn't really get to do many of the things we planned because going out is just not something that can happen right now, but we enjoy our times together regardless.
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I spend days working on editing the final sets of images and putting together all of the video footage to create a short reel of the shows they were able to have.
I get random phone calls through out the days from unknown numbers and most of the time, no one answers on the other line but I brush them off.
I get all my online orders delivered and I finish setting up my room and office space until I've curated the most perfect space for me to retreat to. Joonie even brought me some incredible pieces of art from his collection to hang on my walls and plants from his garden and I've now made a space that I never want to leave from.
I have been staying in my own room every night. It wasn't necessarily intentional, but it just happened naturally. We were all trying to figure out how things were going to work and settle into this new life and so, I just happened to spend the first week sleeping alone.Jungkook has pouted about it every night and even asked if I was upset at him or if he had done anything wrong. Yoongi pulled him aside and had a talk with him.
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With Jungkook struggling with the physical distance between us, he's kissing me every chance he gets and his hands are on me whenever we are all hanging out together. I love that he's trying to hard to be understanding but being separated from me is just hard on him. Yoongi is trying his hardest to be understanding and respectful (even though he's cornered me in the kitchen on several occasions, whining about how much he just needs to bend me over the counter). Taehyung has continued to be a little more distant, but every now and then will push my hair behind my ear or run his fingers across my cheeks. Things aren't where they were and honestly, I don't know if they ever will be.
I love spending time with them but I'm terrified, honestly. I'm afraid that I'll become to dependent on them and then, if something happens, I'll be the one suffering so I want to take this time to establish myself and make sure they know that just because we live together, doesn't mean we are going to be available to eachother at all times.
