"My heart is divided in 7 pieces and each of those pieces make me whole. Right here, in this very moment, nothing else fucking matters. The jealousy, the trauma, the drama, none of it means anything because you 7 are the only thing I need in life an...
"Eleanor, it's fine, don't freak out," Jungkook tells me as he rubs his hand up and down my back.
"He's right. Luckily, you wore very basic clothing and your body shape isn't showing or your hair. Also, the other good thing is, your face isn't seen, so there is no way any one will be able to tell it's you," Sejin tells me.
Jungkook and I are sitting in the kitchen with Sejin trying to figure out how we are going to handle this.
"It's not that bad, I promise," he continues to tell us.
"We will just ignore any and all topics regarding it and not allow it to be talked about in interviews. Jungkook you just need to be more mindful of what you're doing and where you are. I know you want to be around Eleanor and you want to be physical with her but it's one of the things we have to be very protective of. Not because we don't want you two to have a public relationship but because we know how the fans will react; with the English single coming out soon and the comeback on the horizon, we just have to be careful. You knew this when you debuted, Jungkook-ah. You knew this was a sacrifice you were going to have to make. Eleanor, you unfortunately didn't know about any of this when you started this relationship but this is where you learn. Idol's relationships are kept very private. It's important that the fans always feel like they're number one. While we are aware that they know that their favorite idols date, making it public and showing it off is really where people start to get sour feelings. I know you two care deeply for each other and I'm very happy that Jungkook has found someone that he feels like he wants to share his life with, but we need you guys to please, just be more careful. Within the walls of this house, you're free, but in public, especially during group interviews or activities, hands off, okay?" Sejin continues. He really is such an amazing manager; always making sure that we know that he will fight for the members no matter what.
"With everyone going into lockdown, you guys will all be taking the next week or so off until we can figure out what is going on with schedules and all of that so hopefully it dies down by then. Try and just lay low. Okay go and get unpacked. I hope you're comfortable here Eleanor. If there is anything you need, please let us know," he finishes and walks away with a smile.
Jungkook turns toward me and sighs.
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"I wonder if our relationship will ever not be dramatic?" he asks me.
"Probably not. Especially since we have to keep it so private. It's weird, I never realized how hard it would be to not touch my boyfriend or even look at him in certain way, without it being overly scrutinized," I tell him.
"I didn't either. I mean, I knew from the moment that we debuted that any relationship I had would be kept very private but this is much harder than I imagined. I want to share everything with you; every aspect of my life but I don't know how I'm supposed to just be around you and not touch you, or look at you, or want to smile at you" he says as he looks down and frowns.
