SEESAW - My Perslabstori Book 2 (ONGOING)

SEESAW II - 42

Hi, this is CCC Agency.

We regret to inform you that our artist, Angelique, will be having an indefinite break to focus on her responsibilities as a parent to her kids. Please be advised that her ongoing projects and shows were all canceled in the meantime which means, she will still continue the said commitments in the future. We hereby ask for understanding and cooperation to help Angelique to have a healthy comeback in the future. Your support and encouragement to our artist in times like this shall be greatly appreciated. Please wait for our further announcement about Angelique's schedule.

Thank you and have a nice day!

Tinatanaw ko ang lahat ng envelopes sa lamesa, lahat ng to ay naglalaman proposals and invitations from locals,

Dahil nga aware silang nandito ako sa Pilipinas ay kabi kabila ang pagpapadala nila ng invitation. Sa bahay nila daddy ang derecho nito dahil iniisip nilang nandun kami nagsstay, kaya naman late ko na kung makita ang mga to. Pero ganunpaman ay wala naman akong pinagbigyan kahit isa.

Tulad ng sinabi ko, nandito kami ng mga anak ko sa Pilipinas para magfocus at magpakananay sakanila, hindi para mas magpakilala sa likod ng pangalang Angelique.

"Hello, Cliff?", bungad ko pagkasagot sa tawag niya.

"I will not interfere with that special gift that you're talking about for your fans, I know you're responsible for your actions and I trust you. I can't wait to know what it is!". Napangiti ako, yan si Cliff! Kakaiba siya magmanage ng artist that's why hindi ako nagsisi na pinili kong maging parte ng agency nila.

"Thankyou so much!", pagkaputol ng tawag ay agad kong binuhay yung laptop.

I'm ready.

This is the special gift I am talking about, kaya ako humingi ng atleast seven days from Cliff para paghandaan to.

Gabi gabi simula pag uwi namin ng Pilipinas ay naglalaan ako ng kaunting oras para magsulat. Kahit kanino ay hindi ako nanghingi ng tulong, kaya maging sila Cliff ay walang kaalam alam tungkol dito.

Ako lahat ang gumawa, hindi ako takot sa kalalabasan. I'm not doing this for work naman, ginawa ko to because I want to give them something. Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal na mawawala as Angelique, so maybe bago ako tumalikod pansamantala. I will give them something that I think will lessen the sadness they would feel after Cliff released the statement of my hiatus.

Gusto kong maintindihan nila, I am inviting them all na alamin kung ano ang nararamdaman ko. Para aware silang ito talaga ang kailangan ko at makakatulong sakin sa ngayon..

This is Breathe.

Pressure is here,
Camera is everywhere.
I'm not regretting anything,
It's just that sometimes I've been questioning myself, and I've been thinking about this.
As the time goes by,
Is this really what I wanted for life?

Magising na parang naninibago,
Tamang mundo pa ba ang ginagalawan ko?
Pinapanuod ang mga batang tumatakbo papasok sa loob ng kwarto,
Maririnig ang tawanang nagsilbing pinakamagandang musika sa tainga ko.

'Mommy, can we play?'

I've been holding a mic for a lot of times so maybe it's time for me to hold a bottle of milk.
I'll just take a rest as an artist and will focus on being a mother for my kids.
I'm not going to bring down my mic forever.
I just have to do it for now because I've find it hard to hold two things at the same time.

The moment when I felt like everything that surrounds me is suffocating,
When I feel like I'm slowly drowning,
There's this two smol humans who keep me going.