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Chapter 25- Never.

Ever since I was young I've always wanted myself a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, I didn't know whether in the next moment I'd be hating Jeon Jungkook or finding myself falling in love with him the same as I did before. I didn't know anything in fact, all I could see was myself. What was I doing with life? A question I asked myself every time when I failed and felt lost but this time that didn't help.

Once John Lennon said that there are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life. It makes a lot of sense to me now, us humans are so stupid still. We really tend to start loving someone more than loving ourselves to only find us getting broken by the end because no matter how bad the days are, it's only you who stays by the end with yourself.

I already warned Yoongi to not speak in between because I needed to face Jungkook in that very particular moment before dropping myself into any conclusion, I wanted him to see the trust I have in my eyes for him before taking any actions. All the world is made of faith, and trust, and pixie dust at the end. "Are you okay baby?" Jungkook walked in with a worried look, he seemed to have been running a mile around by the look of his sweaty shirt and exposed forehead. If it was normal day I'd have cooed at him for being so worried but at this moment I couldn't help myself but fear at the multiple possibilities that could arise which led to me looking lifeless.

"Ara" I mumbled as she finally walked in, she was previously behind Yoongi. I could see Jungkook's jaw tensing and eyes widening like he just discovered himself inside an alternate universe while Ara stood thier with a proud smirk even though I could see tints of fear here and thier which was questionable. "I trust you Jungkook but you need to tell this girl that she's lying and sort this out and I'll listen to whatever you have to say okay?" I looked at him with hopeful eyes which he seemed to be now avoiding as soon as his so called sister walks into the picture while Ara scoffed in the background.

"You bitch, why are you lying to this innocent girl? why can't you just accept that you are a fucking psychopath who's good for nothing and enjoys the sensation of raw blood over your hands and that too of people who did nothing wrong" Ara spoke out the venom as I clenched my fist waiting for a negative response. Waiting for Jungkook to deny everything and prove himself right so that we could get back to our normal life and even provide his so called sister with appropriate medical attention for whatever horror stories she just recited for us previously. But there was nothing in response except absolute pin drop silence surrounding us as I started shaking in fear because with each passing minute I could see my nightmares becoming the truth. "Cat got your tongue huh? Well brother you can't deny our signature birth mark can you Kookie" she highlighted the word Kookie by pulling it as far as she could with a satisfied smirk as I looked back at Yoongi who stared at Jungkook with the same hopeful eyes as me, not believing that this could be anywhere near the truth.

"I never murdered anyone, you were the one who did that because you were jealous that dad paid attention to me more" Finally Jungkook spoke as I looked at him with clear confusion. "Oh please shut up, dad had a pathetic mind set of favouring males but then again why would you tell them that you had a little sister? for sympathy I bet tch such an attention seeker" Ara grabbed onto another bone of us again while the uncomfortable silence surrounded us. Tired of the stretched silence Ara looked at me with a bored look as if she was about to just walk out since whatever she spoke according to her was nothing but the absolute truth.