Different Sides of the Sea - Levi Ackerman x Reader

chapter 22

(a/n) from here on forward, there will be season 4 spoilers as well as slight manga spoilers, but i will put a warning beforehand :-)

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Short Flashback

Warriors Training, age 8

"Zeke, do you think we'll get to see them again? Our parents?"

He and I were playing in the dirt together. Drawing faces with sticks on the ground.

He stayed quiet.

"I just miss them. I wish things were different so they could be here."

I sighed, "My dream is to become an Honorary Marleyan. Maybe then, I'll be so admired and I'll never be alone again."

Zeke continued drawing in the dirt.

"I always see you play catch with Mr. Ksaver and I wish I had someone too," I put my head down and played with the dirt between my fingers.

After some time, Zeke grabbed my hand and looked at me with his green tinted eyes, "I promise to be there for you when you need me. Always."

I gave him a smile.

We were both having a hard time without our parents, but Zeke still had someone who cared for him. I didn't.

Zeke was always there for me.

He was my best friend.

We held hands as innocent children would. Laughed together and shared our dreams.

We would eat together and feed the birds around us.

This wavy haired blonde boy made me happy. I wasn't alone like I thought I was.

I was getting beat in hand to hand combat. It was hard and I was getting my ass kicked everyday.

Zeke would still give me fist bump in reassurance afterwards.

He was weaker than I was when it came down to fighting.

Just a few years later, I was beating everyone in training. Zeke fell far behind, but because of Mr. Ksaver, he was guaranteed to inherit his titan due to Ksaver's wishes.

He didn't have to work as hard anymore.

After awhile I grew jealous because I realized he was practically handed everything he had ever wanted.

Someone to care for him, becoming an Honorary Marleyan, and he was looked up to by our fellow comrades.

It pissed me off.

I started to avoid Zeke. I knew what I was doing was wrong, I shouldn't be angry at things I couldn't control, but I couldn't help it.

He was being given everything I had ever wanted.

After everyone inherited their titans, it was only Porco and I.

We grew closer during that time and I don't know if it was because I enjoyed his company or because I was scared to be alone again.

But my heart was still weightless and empty.

Somedays, I would remember the small, sweet, blonde haired boy who made me a promise while playing in the dirt.

Things changed and that sweet boy would soon plan to murder my friends inside the Walls.

To plan on murdering the one person who made my heart warm.

When Levi smiled, I couldn't help but feel fuzzy inside.

Levi's presence soothed my sorrow feelings.

Levi...

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"(Y/N)..."

Hearing him say my name felt like pouring salt on a wound. It was the only time I hated the way he said my name.

Before I could muster up the nerve to reply, he pushed the chair back and quickly left the room.

Leaving me all alone.