yes its a Dallas Green song lyrics ^.^
Chapter 21
I had walked around for a bit, trying to straighten out my thoughts. I did like Ashley and I felt guilty for not kissing her back, I felt guilty for using her before just to feel something other then this jealousy. She was very pretty, and funny. Out of everyone she was the one who was there. The rest of the guys hated her for some reason and stayed on Tammys side. Didn’t they see what she did to Ashley? What she was doing to me? Why did I feel like the bad guy?. Ugh! Girls always did that. I felt so much anger towards Tam. Never in our friendship have I felt this way. We never fought.
Tammy was falling back into her old habits of drinking, only this time she was picking fights, not working, she never slept on the bus anymore and she was with him. Danny. Nothing would satisfy me more then punching him in the face. This was his fault. For her drinking, all this. Worst of all, he made her happy.
I was walking to the bus now, I knew the guys wouldn’t be there. They had an interview. Mike txted me asking to come but I told him I needed to be alone.
My chest was heavy and my eyes hurt.
Having this prep talk with myself didn’t do me much good. Everything just replayed in my mind and I was more confused then ever.
I had reached the bus and just wanted to sleep. Dragging my self on and locking the door behind me so I wouldn’t get any surprise visitors since only the guys and our driver had the key.
I went to the bunk area and took off my shirt and pants. Standing there in my boxers looking down at my bed.
there she was curled up in my bunk. Her skin looked very pale and I could see the bags under her eyes. Despite everything she looked peaceful. I had seen my best friend sleep many times but right now she looked so fragile so small. Beautiful.
Sliding into the bunk I put a pillow against the wall so I could sit up a bit. Pulling Tammy into my arms and letting her head rest on my chest. I hugged her tightly.
Tears swelled my eyes when I noticed scratched on her wrist. She cut herself.
Guilt built up inside. I felt terrible for being angry at her. I was suppose to protect her and yet I knew she did it because of me.
I kissed her forhead and layed my chin on her head lighly touching her scraps on her knuckles. I knew they were from before.
“Vic, don’t be upset with me” she mumbled, I knew she was half asleep.
“sshh, Im not” speaking softly to her. I didn’t want to wake her up fully.
“Your heart is pounding, and your making my forehead wet” slowly she lifted her head to look at me.
I quickly rubbed my eyes. Not noticing I was crying.
“I cant protect you anymore.” blinking in surprise, of what I just said. Tammy looked shocked too.
“What?”
“I cant be here anymore for you. You have Danny and I have Ashely.”
She nodded knowing what I meant. Weight lifted from My shoulders. I guess I realised I did like Ashley. That I wasn’t the one to catch Tam when she fell. I was the friend, always the friend. I had to just let her go now.
“Can we have a sleep over?” I couldn’t help but smile at her. Nodding I slide down so I was lying on my back now. She didn’t move beside me, just laid back down on my chest. Slowly I stroked her hair.
“I love your voice” I whispered feeling her smile against my skin.
“Im sorry Vic”
I didn’t say anything, I knew what she meant.
She was sorry for singing with Danny, for making me hurt inside, to worry about her, for cutting and drinking. She was letting me go.
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