TAM PoV
Vic came closer, there was no space between us. My body trebled, he made me nervous. He did things to me that I had never felt before. I hated it but loved it at the same time.
Raising his hand, he cupped my face pulling me in closer. I closed my eyes feeling his warm breath on my lips. When they met, I felt a spark. It ran through my body, I know he felt it too. We both stopped for a moment, letting the kiss linger. He wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me in tighter and started to deepen the kiss. I knew it was wrong, I was only hurting him. But I wanted him, I wanted every part of him. It was killing me. My hands found their way to his chest, feeling his hard muscle. And his heart that pounded underneath. It took everything inside me not to tear his shirt off, to feel his hot skin pressed again mine. I hated myself. He didn’t deserve me. I was an awful person. I couldn’t let this go any further.
“Vic, no” I pulled my lips apart from his. But not moving out of his grasp.
His eyes searching mine for answers. The ones I didn’t want to give. He was so vulnerable so fragile. He had just confessed his feelings for me, but then so did Danny. My mind was in over drive, mainly from the kiss but I was now stuck between two guys.
“Vic..” I started but couldn’t think of a single thing to say.
My heart was breaking with every minute that went by with words unsaid. My eyes were filling with tears. This was it, I was going to kill him. I was killing us both. But I couldn’t do this. I couldn’t just let him back in. especially when Danny had never done anything wrong to me.
“Danny, Danny loves me” I choked. No longer able to look in his eyes , I couldn’t face the pain. I hung my head, hiding my own. I felt his body go limb, Vic's hands slowly slide of me and down to his sides. I sobbed silently.
“Im sorry Vic, he said it today and..” I didn’t say anything., why couldn’t I just tell him.?!
“Do you?” speaking with no emotion at all.
No, I don’t . I don’t love him.
My head was screaming this, but words weren’t coming through my mouth.
“Do you?” he asked again, this time more pain showed in his voice.
“I don’t know” I was ripping my own heart out.
He took both my hands in his and slid them off of him. Tear marks ran down his perfect face, I hated seeing my best friend in pain. It twisted my insides and shot a pain through my chest.
He just turned and walked away from me without a single word, now I knew how it felt.
The wind blew and sent my body into shivers. It was cold. Cold without him. I was alone, alone in this world. Silent sobs escaped my mouth, I had no more tears left to cry. My body was weak, numb. Yet I somehow had the strength to move inside. My legs carrying me to my room, to my bed. Staring at the black ceiling above.
Tammy you are so stupid, why cant you do anything right. Why did Danny have to tell me he loved me, do I even love him? Do I love Vic?
I over played everything, my whole life was playing before me. It made so much sense thinking about mine and vic's relationship. Why we were so close, why he brought me so much happiness. But it was the little things that killed me. He was quick to tell that fan I was his friend and only his friend, he was quick to jump into a relationship and believe her over me. Who says he wouldn’t do it again? He was drunk, I was drunk. This was just us being stupid.
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