Chapter 39
Tam pov
I hated saying goodbye to Tony, It felt like he was going on tour for months again and I was left back to just wait. He insisted on walking me to my new sleeping quarters but I assured him I was fine. He finally gave in and pulled me into a tight hug , kissing my cheek and walked away.
I sat at the bench for awhile after watching him leave. The sun had set and Warped was packed up. Slowly buses emptied out of the park, driving off to Toronto. I was excited to see my grandma. We would have the day off before the stress of Warped started up again until the end of the month. My mind was on over drive, debating rather or not, I could handle a few more weeks of this. I was on the verge of a break down, ive had them before. I knew how I got. Only, I had vic to Calm be down before. This time I needed to stop this break down from happening on my own. Maybe I should stay with my grandma for a bit?
My mind ran over everything that happened this summer, it was the worst ever. Well, there was a lot of fun times. Like meeting the guys in Sleeping with Sirens and Memphis may fire. Watching all the cool sets, and the parties. Not to mention Danny.
Speaking of Danny, I have to ask him something.
I hadn’t seen him all day, though I was left to sleep while my poor boyfriend had to preform after a long night of driving.
“Did you every wonder that maybe all these fights are happening because you guys actually have stronger feelings for each other?”
Tony's voice shot through my head. I had thought of this on numerous occasions. But Vic and I didn’t, it was impossible. We had been friends since ever, it was our secret agreement to never be more then what we were. To avoid complication. Complication like the crap that was going on.
Shit.
This isn’t.. It cant. Just because I hate his girlfriend. Does not mean I have feelings for him like that.
But at the same time, we did act like a couple. People would make comments all the time. When that fan asked if we were dating, and he said no, never. Maybe that’s why I felt hurt?
Those odd feelings I was getting when he could come see me?.
No!
I was always happy to see my best friend, he doesn’t feel anything for me. He thinks im a sickly, im a burden to him. Im the worst friend ever to him.
Ugh, I need a drink.
“Oi! Tam, We're leaving!” I heard Ben call from across the field. I slowly made my way over to him, still letting my head and my heart fight with each other.
“you okay, love?” he stood and watched me pass right by him and on to the bus. He followed closing the door so the driver could leave.
“Im okay, just still really tired. Is there anymore Jack?”
I knew I wasn’t convincing but he walked over and grabbed a bottle from the cabinet.
I thanked him as he handed me the bottle, sitting down on the couch across from me.
“Danny's up, he;s just having a shower. Hows the foot?”
“Its okay, I cant feel it”
He laughed.
“I wonder why” indicating to the bottle of jacks in my hand.
I gave him a smile and put the bottle to my lips. Letting the liquid run down my throat burning and warming up my insides. Leaving me feeling numb.
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I don't ever want to lose my best friend (Vic Fuentes )
RandomBest friends since they were kids. Tammy and Vic were inseparable. Vic was always there for his best friend, but what happens when he decides to bring her on tour with him and the guys. Does he realize she means more to him then just friends...