8th Feb: Clinical Depression

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Date: Sunday 8th February 2015
Style: Free Verse
Title: Clinical Depression

Persistently sad, this is no triviality
Feelings of hopelessness
Loosing interest in the things I love
Lack of appetite and no sex drive
I can't begin to tell you how tired I get
I slept for twelve hours and wake as if I needed twelve more
Eyes heavy and laden as if I'd just done a full day's manual work

Pull yourself together, they say
Snap out of it, they say
In my head, jump, they say

I've thought about suicide a lot
But I know how selfish it would be on my friends and family
Besides I believe in an afterlife
Would I walk an eternity in limbo?
Would I burn in hell for being gay?

I must solider on, through these hard times
It has been made worse by recent events

The fear
The uncertainty
The terror of the unknown

Despite friends and family, we all face this illness, and life, alone

Clinical depression is nothing to be scoffed at
I'm going to try, try really hard to get through this

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