Racing To You [Liu Yuxin x Reader]

66. Of Restroom Talks

Y/N's POV

"Kiss me..." Yuxin whispered so softly.

I couldn't respond, too caught up in what I'm feeling, to understand her. My face feels so hot and warmth is blooming in my chest. The feeling only intensified as she continued to stare at me. Her hands playing with my hair.

Her cheeks are warm red and I'm sure so are mine. Has she always been this pretty? My eyes dropped down to her lips and they're pink. Is it weird to notice all these things now? There's a pull in my gut to get closer. I didn't know that kissing her would feel that... nice.

I froze as I realize just what I'm doing. The haze I'm in, broke and I blinked. Our faces are so close to each other now, breaths mingling and noses nearly touching. My heart is pounding so hard, too hard now and I can hear it beating in my ears. What am I doing?

I abruptly leaned away, eyes wide as saucers in realization. I looked at her and she still has her eyes closed as if she's waiting. Would it be so bad to lean in just one more time? What? No! My eyes widened even more in shock as at my own thoughts.

I scrambled to completely pull away and stand up. My knees wobbled a bit but I still managed to stand up right. This is so awkward now. Yuxin's eyes opened, dazed and disoriented as she looked up at me. I stared back at her with wide eyes.

She blinked a few times before realization struck her and she gulped. "Y-Y/N, I..."

"I'm r-really sorry!" I blurted out before I could think. I bit my lips as I took staggering steps backwards.
"E-excuse me."

I swiftly turned and bolted away, escaping and running away from the scene. I heard her calls to me, yet I'm far too embarrassed to go back or even stop. Not even when my knees ached in protest at the fast movements.

Without realizing it, I reached the restrooms. I entered one of the stalls and sat on the toilet. I clutched my chest as I tried to catch my breath. I covered my face and let out a shriek. Not caring if the whole building or the whole school hears it.

"Lee Y/N... what the hell did you just do?" I whispered to myself as I clutched my head.

We just kissed. Or more like she kissed me. But I just let her do it and I was just about to kiss her again. I groaned and rubbed at my face in utter exasperation. I let out another shriek, wanting the feeling of embarrassment to leave my system already.

I shouldn't have done that. Yuxin is my friend. Friends don't kiss each other like that in pure casualty. Need it be said, almost twice. What's going to happen now, then? Would we just stop being friends or just pretend that nothing even happened? I don't know, really.

I don't even know why she kissed me all of a sudden. I don't understand anything. Why I let her do it and why I was actually fine with it. Why I wanted to do it again. That was my first kiss. I didn't know that it would go and feel like that. I didn't know that I would actually like how it feels like.

"Can't somebody just show up out of nowhere and tell me what this means?" I sighed out and slumped my face to my hands.

"Liu Yuxin likes you..."

"AHHH!" I let out a frightened scream as I heard a voice from somewhere outside my stall.

I clamped a hand over my mouth to cut off my own scream. Am I going insane? I might be. Judging from how much I have on my plate right now. It couldn't be too far from the possibility that I'm turning into a nutcase. The first sign, after all, is hearing voices.

"You alright there, Lee Y/N?" The voice said again. Could it be a ghost? It knows my name. I didn't respond, eyes wide as I looked around the small stall. I really am going mad.