Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 9

Chapter 9 

Meet 

After everything I experience hindi na bago sa'kin kung merong mga taong hindi ako matatanggap and will choose not to accept me in there life. Dahil sa lahat ng naranasan ko I realize that not all people will like you some will throw hate and daggers at you hanggang sa bumagsak ka. 

That is what I experience since I was a child but I am so weak not to fight back at ipilit ang sarili ko para magustuhan ng lahat. I know a lot of people likes me now, a lot of people adores me kaya hindi ko na kailangan pa na ipagsisikan yung sarili ko sa buhay ng isang taong ayaw akong maging parte ng buhay nila. 

I am Chantal Jimenez and a lot of people are willing to fight for me and protect me and also my spotlight and that is enough for me. Hindi ako takot na mawala ang spotlight sa'kin when I leave it dahil alam kong may magbabantay ng lugar na yun sa'kin and that is the people who love me even they barely know me. 

People are not aware of my full name and they just know me as  Chantal Jimenez. Hindi nila alam ang pinagdaanan ko pero alam kong alam na nila na I experience a lot dahil na din sa mga naging interview ko about how I become like this at paano ako napunta sa lugar na 'to. 

I did not enter this industry para ipaalam sa mundo ang pinagdaanan ko ang gusto ko lang ay ang malaman nila na kung paano ko nakayanan ang mga yun that make me who I am now. I want to inspire them by not exposing what really happen dahil magmumukhang sinisiraan ko lang sila dahil lang sa umangat ako. I know how their mind work kaya hindi ko gagawin yun I will not step down on their level I am more than that. 

"Malapit na ang Victoria Secret Fashion Show and you look not okay." I said to Irene when I saw her in the artist lounge sipping a milktea na siguradong blue berry milktea. I approach her dahil parang problemado e alam ko okay naman siya when I pick her up at the airport few weeks ago para sa vacation niya with her friends but looking at her now. She look bothered. 

Ako pa naman yung tao na pag nakikita ko na parang may gumugulo sa taong malapit sa'kin hindi talaga ako mapakali hanggang hindi ko nalalaman just like how I bug Mia to tell me the tea about her and Oliver. 

"I'm okay." she said while biting the straw kaya kinuha ko naman yun sa kanya kaya napatingin siya sa'kin. 

Irene is good at hiding mas magaling pa nga ata sa'kin. Mararamdaman mo yun on how she will distant herself sometimes that is why I am trying to communicate to her more kahit na alam ko naman na may mga kaibigan siya but after knowing her more she don't like to be a bother to people and I am one of those kaya ako na ang gagawa ng paraan para hindi siya magdalawang isip na magsabi sa'kin if she has problems. 

She become so important to me all of a sudden. She make me feel that I have someone and that is her kaya yun din ang gusto ko na maramdaman niya sa'kin. 

"Are you nervous or something? You still have time to breathe." I said to her and seat beside her. Kami lang ang nandito dahil panigurado yung ibang artist at model may mga schedules at nataon lang talaga na wala akong shooting ngayon kaya dumaan ako dito and I didn't expect Irene to be here, actually. 

"Chantal, do you know the feeling that your heart will just beat like crazy dahil lang sa isang actions? You are an actress, naranasan mo na ba yun sa mga nakilala mong artista lalo na doon sa ka-loveteam mo na si Jayce. Did you experience it?" Mabilis na tanong niya and that make me just stare at her and she look frustrated. 

Hindi din agad ako makasagot dahil ang dami ng sinabi niya at hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat sabihin. It also makes me think kung naranasan ko na nga ba yun kay Jayce dahil siya lang naman kasi yung nakakasama ko sa mga scene that will make you heart beat go crazy just like what Irene said pero habang iniisip ko yung mga panahon na nakasama ko si Jayce nitong mga nakaraang buwan napailing na lang ako.