Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 30

Chapter 30 

Fight 

First week after I go back I don't know but it felt weird dahil ang hirap and I feel like I am always looking for someone and of course who is that it's my boyfriend sa nakalipas na isang linggo after I go back to my work I accepted a lot of offers to walk in a runway and also a lot of endorsements. 

I actually talk to Jayce already at nagtatampo sa'kin dahil bakit daw mas pinili ko mag focus sa modeling ngayon and he said he miss working with me na tinawanan ko lang naman. The release of the movie the we film before and after holidays will be out in August and that will be also the time that I will go back on acting. 

Kaya ko naman ding pagsabayin ang modeling at acting yun nga lang I will act but not as a lead maybe an extra or a side character only but after the movie release I will go back on acting because there is a lot of project waiting for me. 

"Alam mo simula noong bumalik ka may nag-iba sa'yo." Rosalie said while my make-up artist are putting my make-up. 

"At ano naman yun?" I ask her. May product shoot ako ngayon and next week I will fly to Las Vegas because I have a fashion show to attend to there but not as a model but as a guest actually Irene also got invited but she decline it dahil tambak ang schedule niya na hindi niya na pwedeng icancel. 

"Parang may kulang sa'yo? I expected na babalik ka dito na fresh and glowing or something because of the month vacation pero hindi yun ang nakikita ko sa'yo. Para kang may naiwan na gusto mong balikan." She said and that make me look at her kaya natigil sa paglalagay ng eyeshadow yung make up artist ko. 

"What are you saying? I am fine." I said and she just shrugged. 

Gusto kong sabihin sa lahat what I have with Michael but I also want to understand what he wanted. I know I have people around me that I can trust but I don't have a courage to say it kahit na alam kong susuportahan naman nila ako. Just like I said I am good at keeping everything by myself masyado akong nasanay na ganun kaya nga nahirapan pa akong ikwento kay Irene ang totoong nangyari between me and Celine because all this years I keep it by myself. 

It's so hard for me to open up to everyone dahil masyado akong nasanay na sinasarili ko ang lahat because it's better that way and I won't hear any opinion or advice to anyone because I know to myself that I don't need it. I know meeting Michael help me to overcome it pero ang hirap pa din pala. 

After the shoot wala na akong schedule and I am just gonna go meet Irene and Zemira dahil ngayon lang kami nagkasabay-sabay na free and they are already waiting for me sa agency because they can't be seen while waiting for me and we will just have dinner and it happen that Oliver need to talk to me about something that is why doon na din sila nag-antay. 

"Are you sure hindi ka sasama?" I ask Rosalie nang makarating kami ng Rivera.

She shake her head to me "Birthday ng pamangkin ko at pinapauwi ako dahil hindi pumapayag yung mga yun na kulang kaming pamilya pag may okasyon." she said kaya tumango na lang ako at sinabihan siya na mag-ingat pauwi bago ako umakyat ng artist lounge to look for Irene and Zem. 

"Finally, you're here. Did you talk to Oli already?" Zemira ask at umiling naman ako. 

"I was about to but I just check the both of you." I said. 

"Go na talk to him, I'm hungry!" reklamo niya and Irene just laugh at tinanguan ako to talk to Oliver kaya iniwan ko na muna sila doon bago umakyat sa office ni Oliver. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang gusto niyang sabihin sa'kin because he just told Rosalie that he need to talk to me at yun lang wala ng iba. 

When I enter his office I thought I will see Mia just like the usual pero hindi siya lang mag-isa and he is reading something at umangat lang ng tingin when he felt my presence. I actually don't knock masyado akong komportable kay Oliver that is why I don't need to knock at alam ko naman hindi siya magagalit sa'kin dahil doon.