Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 48

Chapter 48

Permission

When Michael and I talk through phone again I know I am confident on meeting him again because I really miss him at para hindi na mas tumindi pa yun I will face him just like what my heart and mind wanted.

But thinking of facing him again parang gusto ko na lang umatras dahil kahit na sobrang miss ko na siya nandito pa din sa'kin yung takot na baka matapos nito wala na talaga that we are really done. I am scared to face him again dahil sa takot na makita ko sa mukha niya na tanggap niya na talaga na tapos na kami and I can't handle seeing that.

"Why are you so nervous? Para namang hindi naging kayo for 3 years." I glare at Irene and she just shrugged at me.

Dahil sa dami ng gumugulo sa isip ko I ask her to go to my unit and stay for the night para lang may makausap ako at pumayag naman siya dahil mukhang kailangan niya nga daw ako at si Zemira naman busy sa concert niya ngayon kaya hindi ko din matawagan.

"Bakit ba kasi binigay mo sa kanya yun?" Ilang beses ko ng naitatanong sa kanya yun kaya inirapan niya na lang ako at hindi na sinagot and just watch the movie. Parehas lang din naman kasi ang sagot niya hiningi nga daw ni Michael kaya binigay niya.

Hindi na lang ako nagsalita and try to focus on what we are watching pero hindi ko talaga magawa because I don't know how to act when I face him again. Matapos kong makuha yung wallet ko what will I do? Tumakbo na palayo?

"Why I gave that to him? Because I know he also want to see you but didn't know a way kaya ng makakita na siya ng paraan he quickly grab it. Stop overthinking Chantal, hindi niya hihingin sa'kin yun ng walang dahilan. You should face him." Irene said and when I look at her nasa pinapanood pa din naman namin yung atensyon niya.

I already know that Michael has his reason why he did that at kinuha niya yung wallet ko kay Irene na alam niyang kukuhanin ko but I am scared on his reason dahil yung mga positive na naiisip ko natatakpan ng negative thoughts ko.

Nauna ng makatulog sa'kin si Irene but I am really trying to sleep na nagawa ko naman pero tatlong oras lang ata dahil ginising ako ni Irene dahil siya na daw ang maghahatid sa'kin papuntang Queens dahil ayaw kong magdrive ng walang lisensya that is why she insist on coming with me.

"Come on, it's Michael. Even though he is your ex naging kayo pa din naman." Irene said when we stop in front of Queens.

"You will wait for me?" I ask at tumango naman siya sa'kin pero bakit parang ang hirap na maniwala sa kanya? Hindi ko na lang pinansin pa yun at bumaba na ng sasakyan at mabilis naman siyang umalis kaya umiling na lang ako sa kanya.

I enter the building at pinapasok naman ako ng guard kaya mabilis akong lumapit sa front desk to asked about Michael at akala ko matatagalan pa ako sa pag-akyat but when I tell my name mabilis nilang sinabi yung floor number at sinabing magpunta na lang ako doon and Michael's secretary are there waiting for me too.

Nasa pinakataas yung floor niya and I didn't stop tapping my feet on the floor habang paakyat yung elevator and when I arrive and the elevator open napalunok na lang ako bago lumabas. Naglakad lang ako hanggang sa makita ko yung CEO's office at may isang table sa labas nun and when the girl saw me she smile at me at lumapit sa'kin.

"Are you Ms. Chantal?" she asked.

"Yes, is Michael there? I just want to get my things from him." I said.

"He's on a meeting and he also inform me that you will come, you can wait on his office po." she said and smile at me bago ako papasukin ng office ni Michael. She asked me what I want na tinanggihan ko lang naman.