Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 40

Chapter 40 

Mess  

The moment I took risk on being in a relationship with Michael I already know that there is really a high possibility that I might drag him with me but I still choose to risk because I love him and he also said he is willing to be with my spotlight. 

But not this way. Sinabi ko sa sarili ko that I will always protect Michael not to be drag to my spotlight kahit na alam kong handa naman siyang harapin ang meron ako and even though it impossible na hindi siya madamay but I tell to myself that I will try so hard. 

When I read all of the articles na lumalabas about kay Michael and his Dad I can't help but to blame myself because the moment na nabasa ko yung article na nagsasabi that Michael is dating someone mukhang dahil sa'kin kaya may mga lumalabas na ganun ngayon. 

And suddenly I remember all the threats I've been receiving. Mostly coming from the people I thought I can trust. To the people who is so eager to ruin me because of my decisions. 

"Did you reach him already?" Ate Celine ask when she enter my room early in the morning nakatulugan ko na lang ang pagtawag but I still can't reach him at tinawagan ko naman na sila Casper and now they are not answering my calls but I hope nakausap na nila si Michael. 

"Is it okay for me to go to him? Saglit lang I will just check him and come back here again to help you in your wedding." 

"Of course, kahit na sa wedding ka na nga lang bumalik you help me a lot already at wala naman ng kailangan pang ayusin I can handle it." I smiled and I was about to book a flight when I receive a call from Oliver. 

Ate excuse herself for me to talk to Oliver pero hindi ko alam hindi ko pa naman sinasagot yung tawag parang kinakabahan na agad ako. 

"Hey, Oli." I said when I answer the phone. 

"Are you alright?" he asked. 

"Of course, why? Is there a problem?" I asked. 

"Articles and issues about you dating someone is already out and what's worse is some articles said that you are just using that guy to go higher." he said and that almost make my phone drop from my grip. 

"W-What?" I ask stuttering. Hindi ko alam yun because Ate Celine warn me not to look on internet anymore because she saw me reading some articles about Michael and the worry is evident on my face that is why I just keep on calling Michael instead to look at those pero hindi ko naman alam na meron na pala na articles na tungkol sa'kin na lumalabas. 

"I will handle it but first, stay there because your place has so much media now." he said and hang up the phone at hindi na ako pinagsalita pa. 

Ayokong tingnan kung ano man ang mga lumalabas about me pero hindi ko din naman mapigilan ang sarili ko with my shaking hands I look to the internet at bukod sa issue nila Michael I am also on the trending list at laman na din ng ibang sites. 

I check kung saan nanggaling yung article na yun at hindi ko na napigilang hindi magalit sa nabasa ko. It say that I use Jayce for me to be famous when it comes to acting dahil kagaya nga ng sinabi ko bago pa man ako mapair kay Jayce he is already famous and now that our love team is not that active now and he already has a relationship iniisip ng iba lumubog din ako when in fact I choose to leave acting for a while. 

Sa nakalipas na ilang buwan after Zemira's concert tahimik naman ang naging buhay namin ni Michael and wala ding lumalabas na kahit ano na tungkol sa'kin we even celebrate our anniversary before I go here in California and now this is happening. 

I don't need someone to go higher because I trust myself because the moment that I finally have my own spotlight I know to myself na kaya kong umangat ng mag-isa hindi ako gagamit ng kahit sino for me to go up.