Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 44

Chapter 44 

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I know I said to myself that nothing can change my decision but I know myself it can easily change pag si Michael na ang nagsalita. Wala kasi akong laban sa kanya nagkataon lang talaga na may tapang ako ng mga panahon na yun to decide for the both of us pero alam ko inside me I also don't know. 

Because when it comes to making decision Michael is the best one because I am always in a rush that I don't have time to decide just like what happen when our relationship got out in the public. 

Totoong hindi ko alam kung tama ba yung ginawa ko but the only thing that I know is right is I don't want to deny him at dahil sa kilala ko siya at yun ang gugustuhin niyang gawin ko. I promise myself na once na kung mailabas man ang kung anong meron kami I will never deny him. 

Alam ko naman na kaya siya nagkaganun because he is also facing a big issue and ang daming nasasabi ng mga tao sa kanya na pwede ring madamay ako that is why I know why he is becoming like that dahil kung sakali man na hindi nagkasabay ang paglabas ng mga articles na yun I know Michael won't be like that because he knows to himself that he is good but something happen and a lot of people are saying a lot of things about him and his father. 

"What do you mean leave? Linawin mo nga." Oliver said. I am inside his office talking to him about my plan.

Matagal ko din namang pinag-isipan 'to but now my mind is made up I just need is approval. Alam ko naman na tama lang na ito ang gawin not just for Michael but also for me. I feel like what I am doing is also hurting me when all along I thought it's loving me because every time I will face the people ang maiisip ko na lang yung nasasabi nila about me and I feel like in front of them I am not the Chantal that they all adore and love. I am lost. 

I felt like my confidence suddenly taken away from me and I need to build it again. 

"I know I still have years on my contract but I think I need this, Oliver." I said and look at him straight to his eyes. 

"You need what? Leave the first thing that you love? Are you okay losing this? Think, Chantal because this is also what your boyfriend don't want you to do." he said and by the mention of Michael hindi ko na napigilan pang maiyak. 

"Yes, I love this but this is also hurting me. Do you know the feeling of when you are in front of the people nararamdaman mong hindi ikaw yun? I am tired of pretending that everything is okay and not hurting me. I just need to be myself again because I felt like the time I lost Michael is also the time I change." I said at hindi naman agad siya nakapagsalita dahil sa sinabi ko. 

"Then what will you do if I agreed?" I smiled at him. 

"I will be happy?" I didn't know it will come out like a question. 

"No, you're not. Talk to me when you are really sure." he said at pinaalis na ako ng office niya kaya wala na din akong nagawa. 

I met Irene but I just gave her a smile. I don't want her to see me this way she is getting okay I don't want to worry her. Mabilis akong nag-drive sa kung saan ako dalhin ng sarili ko bago maisipang umuwi na. 

Tama nga ba? Why does it sound like a question? I know to myself that I am sure on that decision why does it come out like that? 

When the elevator open and I walk through my unit I stop when I saw a man waiting for me in front of my unit. The man I didn't saw for months already are here in front of my unit waiting for me. 

"Is it true? Why, Chantal? Are you really sure about that?" Natawa na lang ako ng mapait dahil sa tanong niya. I think Oliver already talk to him. That man really knows how to deal with me huh?