Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 25

Chapter 25 

Risk 

Yung buong akala ko that I am protecting my pain but it turns out ako din pala ang gumagawa ng dahilan ng ikasasakit ko. I choose to forget my past at ibaon lahat ng yun sa limot ng hindi man lang naayos and I choose to push the person who gave me comfort. 

The person who make me feel that I can also cry that I can also be weak that I don't need my armor to protect myself dahil alam kong nandiyan siya. He make me feels special he gave me warm. 

"Saan ka galing?" Mommy asked when I enter the apartment. 

"Somewhere." I said and smile to Tita Diana and Celine that is helping my mom cook for the New Year. 

Pumasok na lang ako ng kwarto ko and lie down on my bed at nang makahiga ako doon ko lang naramdaman yung lakas ng pagtibok ng puso ko just because of what happen. Actually wala naman na talagang nangyari dahil matapos ng sinabi niya natahimik na lang ako and I don't know kung ano ang gusto kong sabihin it feels like my mouth is glued at naramdaman ko din na hindi pa ako ready na sabihin sa kanya yun. 

Hindi sa natatakot pa ako kung hindi dahil alam kong once that I also admitted my feelings for him and risk alam kong may matinding kapalit yun sa buhay naming dalawa kaya kailangan ko munang ihanda yung sarili ko kaya wala akong nasabi sa mga oras na yun. He just walk me home at hindi na ako pinagsalita pa but he is talking to me the usual personality of Michael Landon. 

Nasabi niya din sa'kin na he plan to celebrate the New Year in Times Square dahil nasa California daw ang Daddy niya and I tried to ask him bakit wala siya doon ang sinabi niya lang he is not yet ready to go to back where he spent more time with his mom. 

Nakatingin lang ako sa ceiling ng kwarto ko when my phone ring at ganun na lang ang gulat ko ng makita ko yung pangalan niya na tumatawag I remember he gave me his number and I gave him mine dahil parehas pala kaming nagpalit. 

"Hello?" 

"Do you know that if someone is calling you randomly and that person is close to you it mean he or she wants to see you." he said on the other line and that make me smile. 

"I didn't know that, for me if someone is calling you they need something from you." I said at narinig ko namang parang napa-palakpak pa siya doon. 

"Yeah, I need you." he said and that make me froze in a minute still processing what he said and here we go again my heart beat is beating like crazy just because of his words. 

"Do you want to celebrate New Year with me? You can go to our apartment." 

"Grabe, hindi pa ako nagtatanong if I can court you pero meet the parents na ba agad?" he said and that make my eyes roll at rinig ko naman yung tawa niya and that make me smile. 

"And when will you ask that to me?" Hindi naman ako nagmamadali na itanong niya sa'kin yun pero ngayon pa lang alam ko ng may maisasagot na ako kung sakali man na magtanong siya. 

"If I am able to spent more time with you. I want to spent time with you and ask you that." he said and that makes me quiet dahil hanggang ngayong week na lang naman ako dito at balik na ako ng Pilipinas dahil patapos na yung shooting namin para sa movie this January. 

"But I need to go back." I said at siya naman ang natahimik ngayon. 

"Then, I will wait." And that makes me smile wider. "I'm not in a rush you know, I can accept the time and the attention you can give it's enough for me." Now I don't really need to wonder why I fall to him. Hindi kasi mahirap ang mahulog sa kanya lalo na at pag mas kinilala mo pa siya at kahit nga hindi mo pa siya masyadong kilala madali kang mahuhulog sa kanya because he have a personality that some woman will really find attractive.