Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 34

Chapter 34 

Warning 

"Are you not busy this days?" I asked Ate Celine because she keep on calling me simula ng makabalik ako ng Philppines. 

"I am but calling you is part of it you know." she said kaya natawa na lang ako sa kanya. 

Isang buwan pa lang naman after I come back here in the Philippines and hindi naman ganun kadami ang ginagawa ko bukod sa pag-shoot ng series sa kung saan kasama ako. I am not the lead kaya naman hindi ganun kadami ginagawa ko and I am sometimes in a runway and I have a lot of magazine shoots. 

Naisisingit ko din naman sa mga shooting ko yung mga fashion show na pinupuntahan ko na out of the country pati na din yung mga shoot na out of the country kinukuhanan. Michael at the same time become so busy this past month dahil decided na daw na mag-eexpand yung company nila next year yun lang ang sinabi niya sa'kin but he is still calling me everyday and walang araw na hindi kami nag-uusap. 

"Really? It looks like you are out." I said dahil nakita kong parang nasa restaurant siya. 

"It's our anniversary that is why we are out for a date." she said and by the mention of anniversary bigla naman akong natahimik. 

Next month will be the our anniversary. We will celebrate being together for a year pero hindi pa namin napag-uusapan yun and I also didn't think about that kung hindi lang siguro nabanggit ni Ate ang tungkol sa anniversary baka hindi ko pa maalala. 

"Hey, Chandria Natalie!" Napatingin ulit ako sa phone ko dahil sa pagtawag ni Ate. 

"Yes? I'm sorry." I said. 

"Are you okay? Is Michael and you okay? You can tell me if you have a problem okay? I know you and his situation is hard but I know tatagal pa kayo dahil kita ko naman na kahit hindi kayo madalas magkasama nandoon yung love niyo sa isa't isa. I saw it in him when he is looking at you at ganun ka din sa kanya." she said kaya napangiti naman ako. 

"We are okay, we both have our responsibilities to do and we understand each other's situation what matters to us is we are together and nagkikita din naman kami." I said. 

I will admit our situation is really hard umpisa pa lang naman alam ko ng mahirap pero nakayanan naman namin and now we are together for almost a year but nothing change to my feelings it's still the same it's actually become deeper kahit na hindi naman kami madalas na nagkakasama. 

Hindi man kami madalas magkasama iba pa din kasi once na makita namin at maramdaman namin ang isa't isa once na magkita kami pakiramdam namin nakabawi na kami sa mga panahon na hindi kami nagkikita. 

Some people will say the long distance relationship is hard I badly want to fully agree to them but I can't yes, alam ko na mahirap nga ang malayo kami but a part of me is saying the our distance doesn't matter because we trust our love. 

Malaki ang tiwala ko sa pagmamahal na meron si Michael sa'kin at ganun din naman siya sa'kin because we are open mostly Michael he is so open to me lahat ng gusto niyang ipaalam sa'kin ipapaalam niya and he will not keep it kaya pati na din ako nadadamay sa kanya. 

Sa aming dalawa si Michael ang may pinakamalawak kung mag-isip he always find reasons and he knows how to create a decision na hindi lang para sa kanya kung hindi para na din sa aming dalawa. Yes, he can create a decision na hindi talaga akong sang-ayon but because of how he will let me understand it and how good he is on giving reason wala pumapayag na din ako sa huli. 

Just like our decision to keep our relationship at first ayoko naman talaga dahil ayoko naman na itago siya but later on I realize it's selfish. I know that Michael is willing to be on my spotlight pero ako ang gusto ko ilayo siya doon because I know how much he avoided it in his whole life at ayoko naman na dahil lang sa'kin mangyayari sa kanya ang bagay na ayaw niyang maranasan.