Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 12

Chapter 12 

Protect

"Where did you go last night? Kalat na sa internet na you go out with someone!" Oliver said when I enter his office and Mia is also here and Rosalie. "Kakaayos ko lang ng mga issue na tungkol sa'yo na gawa-gawa ng kung sino para siraan ka but now you really did create an issue. Ikaw mismo ang gumawa." he said at ramdam ko yung inis niya doon. 

I know that bago pa man sila makabalik galing ng Las Vegas ang dami talagang lumalabas na issue about me but Oliver knows me and how those people work para siraan ako kaya hindi niya na ako tinanong about all of those dahil alam niya naman ang totoo. He is okay as long as hindi ako ang gumagawa ng sarili kong gulo at issue. 

Now he is mad at me because I really did create one at ang malala pa baka mahatak ko pa si Michael. Hindi ko naman gugustuhin yun dahil baka sisihin niya pa ang sarili niya dahil sa nangyayari knowing how he distant himself to me before because of my spotlight alam kong yun ang pwede niyang maisip. 

"I'm sorry, it's just a friend." I said and look at Oliver. 

"Do you know why I complimented you for being good noong mga panahong wala kami kahit na ang daming issues na lumalabas sa'yo? It's because I know you. Alam ko ang totoo sa hindi pagdating sa'yo at kay Irene." 

"I am not stopping you on anything pero ang gusto ko lang na maisip mo na may kailangan kang ingatan. You are in a love team right now, remember that." he said at tumango naman ako doon. 

"It's just a friend that I met in New York before I came here. Just friends." I said trying to convince Oli that I am saying the truth and when he stare at me for too long tumango na lang siya at wala ng sinabi at pinaalis na ako. 

Tahimik lang ako at ang lalim ng iniisip habang papunta kami ng  photo shoot ko with Jayce and Rosalie said na aayusin na daw nila Mia yung issue na yun para hindi na mas lalo pang lumaki. When we arrive at the studio tahimik lang ako hanggang sa makapasok ng dressing room ako at ilang minuto pa lang akong nakaupo sumulpot na agad si Jayce kaya napairap na lang ako. 

"Ikaw 'tong paalala ng paalala na wag ako gumawa ng kung ano ikaw pala 'tong magkakaissue na naman. Busog na busog ka sa mga issues ngayong buwan ah." Pag-aasar niya sa'kin kaya nabato ko sa kanya yung isang box ng tiissue na nadampot ko. Alam ko naman na ang dami talagang articles at kung ano-ano ang lumabas about me pero ito talagang yung pinakanaapektuhan ako. 

I am affected dahil alam kong nangyari talaga yun and I might drag Michael to this na dapat naman hindi dahil nagkusa naman akong sumama sa kanya not thinking about my status. Hindi ko naisip na pwede ko pala siyang mahatak kung sakaling may mangyari. 

He is protecting my career and spotlight and I feel like I also need to protect him to this. 

"Tigilan mo ako, Jayce." I said and close my eyes pero ramdam ko pa din naman ang titig ni Jayce sa'kin. 

"Aminin mo nga, may boyfriend ka?"

"Wala!" sigaw ko sa kanya kaya nagulat naman siya doon at inirapan ko naman siya. "Bawal na ba magkaroon ng kaibigan na lalaki ang sikat na katulad ko? Are they all crazy and dumb? Lahat na lang ba gagawin nilang issue?" Galit kong sabi kaya hindi din agad nakapagsalita si Jayce sa'kin. 

"It's the consequences of what we achieve, we are not free anymore and we will feel like to every action we will do people will judge us or ruin the name we achieve." he said at nang lingunin ko siya he look serious. "Nakamata na sa'tin ang tao dahil gusto nila we should live by their expectations." He look at me and smile kaya nginitian ko na lang din siya. 

This is the exchange of the spotlight that I dream of. I should always think what other people will think because I am famous and they will think that I am willing to do everything to keep that fame and of course the people who love us.