Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 49

Chapter 49 

Free 

 I can say that what happen between me and Michael makes us become the better person that we want to be. We are afraid because we think that what we are doing and our decision can hurt each other so badly. 

Parehas naming hindi nagustuhan ang way namin to protect each other because in my own way I hurt him and he hurt me on his own way. Parehas naming nasaktan ang isa't isa sa pag-aakalang kaya naming protektahan ang isa't isa but we are wrong because all of our decision end up hurting us both. 

Dahil sa oras na parehas naming binigay sa isa't isa parehas naming nalaman na sometimes we also need to sacrifice one thing and for us to be the better person that we are now we need to sacrifice our relationship and now that we finally have the chance to be with each other again hahayaan pa ba naming mawala yun? 

We promise each other that if the time is ready for us we will take it at hindi na namin hahayaan pang mawala pa yun. We let go of each other but not to end it but to start anew with our new realization. Yung parehas na kaming may natutunan dahil sa nangyari. 

"Who's Leo?" My eyes widen at mabilis naman akong napalayo sa kanya dahil sa sama ng tingin niya sa'kin and his eyes are still bloodshot because of crying. 

"Oh, I forgot I have something to ask to direk." I said at mabilis na lumabas ng tent ko at naglakad palabas at sakto namang nakasalubong ko si direk na halatang nagulat na makasalubong ako. 

"Right timing, is my son with you?" Hindi mo talaga mahahalata na may edad na si Mr. Peterson because I remember him saying that he is just 20 when they had Michael and his wife also. 

"Dad, I'm here." Mabilis akong napatingin kay Michael na masama pa din ang tingin sa'kin. "Can you ask your artist who is Leo." He said to his dad kaya pinanlakihan ko naman siya ng mata while his dad looks confused. 

"Why? Is there a problem? I thought you will talk to her?" 

"I did but that girl likes to hide to me who is that Leo." Michael said kaya napapikit naman ako doon. 

"He is a friend who likes me! But don't worry because I turn him down and he is aware that I am in love with someone but he insist on being friends with me dahil okay na daw yun sa kanya. Is that enough answer, Mr. Michael Landon Peterson?" I said with my gritted teeth. 

Hindi pa nga kami nagkakausap ng matino isisingit niya na agad yung kung sino. Hulaan ko kaya niya ako kinausap na because he is jealous. We should be talking about us now pero inuna niya pang itanong sa'kin kung sino si Leo and that makes me mad. 

I miss him so bad at gusto ko ng maayos ang kung anong meron sa'min because I want us to be back just like before. I want to feel the happiness again when I am with him. 

"Excuse me, I still have somewhere to go." I said at tinalikuran na sila at bumalik ng tent ko at saktong nag-aayos na si Rosalie at yung ibang staff ng gamit ko kaya umirap ako at sinabing mauuna na ako sa van. 

I was about to enter the van when someone drag me at napairap na lang ako at hindi na umarte pa dahil pagod na akong umarte kanina ko pa ginagawa yun. 

"What? Sino naman itatanong mo ngayon?" I asked when he enter his car. 

"I'm jealous, I'm scared. Akala ko mawawalan na ako ng pag-asa. I am scared of you falling in love with someone because all this time that you are not here I never think of falling to anyone but instead I keep on falling for you kahit wala ka naman sa tabi ko." I look at him but his eyes is just looking in front. 

I sighed. "Do you think maiisip ko pang mahulog sa iba? Michael, you know what I can lose just to have you. Alam mo kung ano ang kaya kong gawin para lang sa'yo maiisip mo pa bang mahuhulog sa iba? Before you came there is already a lot of man around me but among those man I chose you. Ikaw lang ang nakakuha ng atensyon ko, ikaw lang ang nakita kong karapat-dapat at yung kayang iparamdam sa'kin ang kakaibang pakiramdam. It's only you, Michael. Do you think I can still fall on someone when you already taken all over me?"