Falling to the Spotlight

Chapter 23

Chapter 23 

News 

Ignoring people that is not part of your life is natural to some people because it means you are ready to start a new life without that person but I didn't know that this will be this painful. One person who become part of my life for a short period of time choose to ignore me. 

Dapat ko naman na tanggapin yun because in the first place ako din naman ang may gusto na ganito ang mangyari ang kalimutan namin na naging parte kami ng buhay ng isa't isa but it's painful for me because I know I treated him as my friend and he help me in a simple way but become so special to me. 

"Ms. Celine." Rosalie said while looking at the woman who just enter my dressing room. Hindi ko na lang din pinansin yun dahil sa tatlong linggong nakalipas ganyan na ang nangyayari every time I have a schedule kaya sobrang tuwa ko din pag wala akong schedule and I will just stay at my unit because when I am home I have a choice if I will see her or not dahil hindi ko naman siya pinagbubuksan ng pinto sa unit ko every time she will go to me.

Hindi na ako nagtanong kung ano ba ang gusto niya kaya niya ginagawa 'to dahil alam ko naman na dahil sinabi niya na sa'kin and I don't want to talk to her anymore because I know I will break again pag may narinig pa ako na salita mula sa kanya. 

Marami ng nagtataka lalo na yung glam team ko kung bakit kung saan nandoon ako biglang susulpot si Celine pero wala din naman silang nakukuhang sagot and I am thankful to that na hindi nila naiisip na magkapatid kami some people are just thinking na naging close lang kami because of the fashion kung saan isa ako sa nagmodel ng design niya at wala din naman siyang sinasagot sa mga tinatanong sa kanya at nasa akin lang talaga ang atensyon niya. 

She is really doing everything para lang makabawi katulad ng sinasabi niya but still nothing change wala pa din akong nararamdaman na kahit ano galit pa din ako. I also want to forgive I also wanted do but it's so hard and I don't want to force myself to be okay and forgive para lang gumaan ang pakiramdam ko but deep inside it's still not okay. 

"Hi, Chantal. Here I bake a banana bread if you don't like sweet." she said at may nilapag sa harap ko but I just look at myself in front of the mirror and ignore her. I heard Rosalie clear her throat at the back kaya napatingin ako sa kanya. 

Wala siyang sinasabi but I know she knows that something really happen after the fashion show when she saw me crying at nakipagsagutan kay Celine and now whenever I go Celine is there but she choose not to ask me and just watch what is happening. 

"Don't you have work?" I ask her and look at her. For the last three weeks that she is everywhere ngayon ko lang talaga siya pinansin at kinausap and when I look at her I saw a glimpse of happiness in her eyes. 

"I don't, that is my last work. The fashion show." she said at hindi ko na siya sinagot pa. I really hope she will get tired on following me whenever I go dahil baka sa kakasunod niya malaman na ng lahat na magkapatid kami. 

I don't know if the world knowing we are sister is a good thing or not but I don't want them to know that dahil alam ko na pag nalaman ng lahat na kapatid ko ang isang Celine De Vega they will not ask about her and what kind of relationship I have with then anong isasagot ko? Should I lie or tell the truth. 

At ayoko din na lagi siyang nakikita dahil mas nagiging mahirap sa'kin ang tanggapin at mapatawad siya dahil pakiramdam ko ginagawa niya lang 'to ngayon lang at pag nakuha niya na ang gusto niya mula sa'kin mawawala na din ang lahat at babalik sa dati at ayoko nun. 

Gusto ko siyang tanggapin at mapatawad dahil sa ginusto ko hindi sa dahil nakikita ko na ginagawa niya ang lahat at dapat ko na siyang tanggapin.