Finding The Courage

Part 13

Tris walked away and I caught sight of a new tattoo on the back of her shoulder. I released a breath I didn't know I was holding and shove Eric out in front of me as I waited for him to clear out Four and his friends. They get into a light argument and Eric turns and walks back towards me only to pass me mumbling about Four being an asshole. I wait a little longer and approach the group as I make my way back to my dorm.

"Wren!" I know it's Four and I try to keep walking past them only for Four to grab my wrist. I stiffen at the feeling on his hand on my wrist.

"You know it's not nice to ignore people Wren." I heard it in his voice that he was drunk.

"Four with all due respect please let go of me." Part of me just couldn't stand to be touched by him after he had just been so close to Tris. I pulled at my wrist again and this time he let go.

"Wren..." He started. I turned to look at him this time and could see the look of hurt and guilt in his eyes.

"I saw you with her. You better watch yourself. I warned you I wasn't a game." I whisper up at him as it finally dawned on him that I was hurt by his actions. I crossed the metal bridge only to hear the others shouting about how I was welcome to join them and offered to take me on a date. I walked away before I could hear Four shout at them to stay away from me.

I found myself sitting with Tris having made it in time for dinner after all. They began talking about Four acting weird and I held my tongue while Tris explained he was drunk. The others filled me in that Peter had been teasing Tris about her father and making accusations based on an article written by Erudite. I shook my head and stormed off to find Peter. When I found him I slammed him down against the floor, seated on his chest pinning him down by his throat.

"What happened to leaving Tris alone?" I hissed out at him, while his friends struggled to pull me off of him. He waved them off and they left us in the middle of a hallway with me on top of him.

"Baby if you wanted to be on top of me all you had to do was ask." He smirked up at me. I slammed his back onto the floor again.

"You told me you would leave her alone. I am also from Abnegation and I wasn't mentioned in that article was I? Tris's father was one of the nicest men I knew. Leave her alone." I hissed in his ear again. I got off of Peter and left him there only, he had other plans. He was quick to get off the floor and suddenly had me pinned against the wall. I was about to try to fight him when I felt his lips on mine. I tried to squirm away but found his arms and hands made their way around my waist and behind my head. He had me trapped. This was a kiss I had not expected nor had I wanted it. I did not kiss him back.

"You know I've wanted to do that for a while. It's an easy way to get you to shut up. But you were on top of me and I enjoyed that very much." Peter whispered as he brushed hair out of my eyes. He kissed me again and this time I paid attention to how he kissed me. He was aggressive, nipping my bottom lip when I didn't respond to him.

Voices were getting closer to us and I took the chance to struggle out of his grasp once more. He smacked my head against the wall as Uriah and Zeke saw us. Before I could blink I was being picked up off the floor by Uriah as Zeke punched Peter over and over again.

"How dare you force yourself on her. That is a punishable offence. You can't force people to want you." Zeke was screaming in his face. Uriah led me back to the Dauntless born dorms. Lynn and Marlene immediately made room for us to sit with them on one of their beds. Uriah told them what happened before heading back to find Zeke. Lynn and Marlene decided for me that I would not be sleeping in that room with him tonight. Their voices buzzed around me as I tried to process the fact that Peter had admitted to wanting me. I went through the motions of getting ready for bed with the girls and laid down on one of their beds while they smushed together.

The next day I met up with Tris and Christina in the hallway that led to the simulation room. It was the same as the day before until it was my turn. My fear started with Four being thrown off the building again only this time I jumped to catch him, falling over the edge. I enjoyed the free falling until I was slammed into the ground in a pitch black room. The room was silent, no door. The seconds dragged to minutes and I realized that this was my fear of being alone. I couldn't find my way out of this room but I was able to slow my breathing and control my heart rate. I sat on the floor of the room and began trying to calm down as the sound of my blood rushed in my ears. It took me a minute to realize that I was no longer in the simulation, Four nudged my leg to let me know I was back. 

"I'm impressed. Your times are better than Tris and she went through hers in three minutes. You're doing incredibly well." Four ruffled my hair and sent me on my way. I waited in the hallway for Tris to finish. I wanted to confront her about her being a divergent. Tris approached me looking past me as if I wasn't even there.

"Tris." I call as she walks past me. She pauses to look at me and as if her brain finally turned back on she smiled at me.

"What's up Wren?"

"We need to talk about something, somewhere private." She looked nervous and I motioned for her to follow me. I led her to the roof, the one Eric had assured me was private. I led her to the roof, the one Eric had assured me was private. I sat on the edge of the building and she joined me.

"Tris, are you divergent?" I asked her. I watched as her eyes widened and then she controlled her expression.

"What's divergent?" She asked me, playing dumb.

"Tris, I heard Tori the day we took the test, you went in before me. She said something about me being the second." I sighed as I watched Tris's expression soften. She nods her head.

"Tori told me not to talk to anyone about it but I think Four expect something." I nodded.

"It's because you go through the test almost as fast as I do but I bet you're not calming your heart rate to get out of the fear." Tris shook her head at me. "You can't act like you know it's a simulation otherwise they will find out about us. If you go down I'm going with you."

I got off the edge of the building with her following after me. We head off to see Tori, I felt like another tattoo would be a nice touch for a rough day. Tris sat with me while we looked at designs. Tori eyed us warily when Tris asked why being divergent was dangerous. As Tori began my new tattoo, a fox but half the face was a skull with flowers around the edges, on my rib cage. She explained to us about how her brother Georgie had been divergent and when the higher ups found out Georgie was found in the chasm. Both Tris and I flinched at this new knowledge. When Tori was finished we both assured her that we would be extra careful during the second stage of initiation, she didn't want one us to be pulled out of the chasm. 

"I'm fond of you guys now, plus I've done such beautiful work on both of you it would be a shame to waste it." she smiled as she kicked us out. Tris and I made our way to dinner only to find that most of the initiates were missing. We ate in silence as the others slowly started to join us. Uriah made it a point to sit with us when Peter joined our table. Uriah shoved himself between Peter and I. Four caught the glare that Uriah was giving Peter and shot me a look of his own. I shook my head and ignored his stares. Four and I hadn't talked much since he found out that I was feeling jealous of how he was acting with Tris. Eric had also been missing in action since that night. Peter left soon after he felt the glares of everyone at the table. I couldn't look him in the eye. That night Tris and Christina pushed their beds into mine and we slept together like we had before. We all needed comfort.