Finding The Courage

Part 17

I stayed behind when the others made their way back to the dorm. I headed to the member apartments looking for my brother. To my surprise I bumped into Four.

"What are you doing up here?" He called as I tried to act like I hadn't just walked right into him.

"Looking for my brother." I mumbled.

"You have to be careful Wren. They're watching Tris because she is being reckless, don't draw attention to yourself." I rolled my eyes at him. This proved to be the wrong move. Four caught me by my neck and pushed me into the dark patch against the wall.

" Don't act like a brat with me. I am saying this to protect you." He whispered in my ear. I froze as he trapped me with his body dropping his hand from my neck.

"She is too stubborn to listen but you will survive anything I know you will, you're smarter than her." He kissed under my ear and sent shivers through my body. I let out a small moan before I could stop myself. Four let out a groan and captured my lips with his, pushing his body against me just a little more.

"Toby, we can't do this." I breathed against his lips "Tris has feelings for you and I know you like her too. I don't want to ruin that."

Four just kissed me again, burying a hand in my hair to keep me from pulling away from him. His kisses were heavy and hot, filled with passion. My body had erupted in butterflies and I had no control as more little moans filled the hallway around us. For every little moan I let out, Four rewarded me with a nip on my bottom lip. Eventually he pulled away to breathe.

"Spend the night with me." He rasped, his voice heavy with lust.

"Wayne is expecting me Four." I shot him a look. He nodded and let me go.

"When he leaves in the early morning, come to me and spend the rest of the morning with me. I'll sleep in." He whispered in my ear before disappearing around the corner. I stood there trying to catch my breath before making my way to Wayne's apartment.

Wayne opened the door for me on the first knock. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and led me to his couch. We sat in silence for a while. I didn't know what to say, but finally I told him everything. Wayne listened while I told him about training before the choosing ceremony, about being divergent and what it meant. I told him about Four and I having been friends and how he had shown interest in me as well as Eric and Peter. I finally told him about watching Al die and not being able to stop him from jumping. Wayne pulled me close to him when I finally stopped talking.

"You were right to not go around telling anyone any of this but I'm glad you trust me enough to tell me everything." He rubbed my head to comfort me. "Your friend Tris is going to get you hurt, it might be your heart or it might be because you're trying to defend her. You have to watch out for yourself first. Four was right."

For the rest of the night Wayne told me stories of the Amity farms and beyond the wall. Wayne woke me hours later with a small shove and the ruffling of my hair.

"Hey kiddo, I'm headed out soon. Take a shower and borrow a shirt if you need one. Here's the key to my place: you can come and go as you please. Lock up behind you."

I could still feel the sleep in my eyes and groggily got up to take a shower like Wayne had told me. I was surprised to find female shower products in his shower but they were untouched and I assumed they were meant for me. I was pleased to smell good and have my hair fully washed when I stepped out of the shower. I ransacked Wayne's room for a warm shirt to wear, it was cold in the mornings. I found a thicker hoodie and pulled it on over my other clothes, it landed around the middle of my thighs and like with Four's shirt I had to roll up the sleeves a little. I made my way out of the apartment after cleaning up what little mess we had made last night and this morning. I locked the door behind me and tucked his key into my bra for safe keeping.

The hallway was empty except for the people who would be leaving with Wayne. They all nodded to me as we passed each other. I turned down Four's corridor and made sure no one was around to see me slip into his unlocked room. I lock the door behind me and make my way through the apartment. I find Four in his bed, shirtless and back turned towards me, I admire his tattoos. Each faction's symbol traveled down his spine and I could feel my heart melt. Four definitely never wanted to be just one thing and I knew how important it was to him to keep other attributes about himself.  

I stripped out of Wayne's shirt and my pants to slip into bed with Four. I pulled the blankets up around me as I snuggled into his back. As if he knew I was there he immediately turned around to wrap his arms around me.

"Four?" I breathed out lightly, testing to see if he was awake. I get a low groan in response. I giggled lightly to myself and made myself comfortable in his arms, kissing his nose and lips lightly before resting my forehead against his chest. This movement however woke him up enough to notice me.

"Wren.." I hum in response to him calling my name. His hands reached for my hair and he started to run his fingers through it. I let out a light moan as he keeps going. I knew that I shouldn't be letting him think this is okay but after everything I ignored that part of me and just enjoyed this stolen moment. Four would act differently in the morning and I would too but tonight he was mine and I was his. His hands left my hair and traveled the length of my body feeling every scar along the way. He tipped my chin up to look at him, I met his blue eyes, noticing once again the lighter patch of blue in his left one. He searched my eyes before kissing me again. I didn't run from his kisses this time, I melted into them.

His kisses were soft and sweet, kissing every part of me he could reach while his hands managed to find every inch of bare skin I had. When he finally stopped kissing me I met his eyes again.

"You know when I first saw you pick up a gun I was blown away, I thought I was looking at an angel. You never cease to amaze me, like you're untouchable." He met my eyes again but this an intensity I hadn't seen before. "I want a future with you but I have to protect Tris. You will be offered a leadership position since you will rank in the top five. Take it. Tris won't be offered such a position, Eric is out to get her and if not for his own dislike of her then someone else's. You have to promise me that you will do everything you can to stay safe." His intense eyes had softened as he talked.

"Four you know just as well as I do that I would not be in this faction if I was one to back down from a fight. I will always protect the people I love no matter the cost." I kissed the tip of his nose "If you want to choose Tris and have a life with her that's fine but you don't want to babysit her your whole life do you? Questions for another day, I have to go through your or someone else's fear landscape tomorrow right? Let's sleep while we can." I rolled over and pushed my back against his chest, Four settled one of his arms under my head and the other across my waist. He kissed the back of my head and we fell asleep together dreaming of what it would be like to have this be an every night occurrence.