Listen To Your Heart ~ Book One.

Afraid of Losing you

"I... care a lot about him too."

"But are you in love with him, like you were with your former boyfriends?"

(YES! A voice in Billie's mind screamed. Tell him how you feel!)

"No." (Billie whispers.)

(I lock eyes with Billie.)"Were any of them accused of using you for sex?"

(Billie looks away and doesn't answer me.)

"Gee... I wonder why not. Guess I'm guilty for caring about you. I didn't know it was a crime."

(Billie spends another 30 minutes talking to her therapist, who tells Billie to contact her if the need arises. I get up and walk out quickly. Billie chases after me, begging me to stop. We end up out in the parking lot near her car.)

"Damn it, David. We need to talk!"

"Talk? Talk about what? I come here, and some quack doctor accuses me of using you for sex. Whose idea was that shit? Yours or hers?"

"Hers."

"Is that how you feel?"

"No."

"Is that how you feel, Billie?"

"I SAID NO!"

"Did you tell your therapist that?"

"Yes."

"Funny. I didn't hear you say anything when your therapist was raking me over the coals!"

"Damn you. What the hell do you want from me? Yes, I've been in love before. Yes, I've had my heart broken by other guys. Why the hell do you think I want to be sure this time?"

"Sure, of what? You just admitted to your therapist you're not in love with me, and no I'm not trying to force you into anything... but damn it. How the hell can you even think that I'm only using you for sex? Did we have sex after I got here? When you awoke this morning, was I mad at you because we didn't?"

"No, you weren't."

"I love you, Billy... okay? Just you. Not because of your money, or popularity or anything else. Just you... but I got to know. Are there any other issues I need to know about? Like our age difference for example? Does that bother you?"

"Yes, sometimes. I mean, I wonder what others might say or think. Does it bother you?"

"Yea, it does. It scares the shit out of me."

"Why?"

"Cause being with you is the greatest thing to ever happen to me, and I'm afraid of losing you to someone else. Someone... younger."

"Then we need to make the most out of our time together now, don't you agree?"

"That's true."

"Can I have a hug?"

"Do I have to let you go?"

"I can't drive with your arms around me, smartass."

"I can't get away with anything anymore."

(We hug one another tight, as her therapist watches us from her window above. We get into Billie's car and travel back to her parents' house. I gather my stuff from Billie's room. We walk outside and give each other a fierce hug goodbye.)

"I'm gonna miss you munchkin."

"I'm gonna miss you too. Call me when you get done helping your friends?"

"I will." (I go to kiss her goodbye. She pulls away.)

"I'm sorry. Don't need people snapping pictures of us, you know. I try to keep my personal life private."

"Right. I'll keep that in mind next time I see a picture of you on the internet, being kissed at a nightclub by Needle Dick, or licking some guy's cheek."