Listen To Your Heart ~ Book One.

Keep On Loving You

"I know...it's just sometimes I wish...I..."

(Her voice trails off.)

"What?"

"I wish I wasn't famous...just normal instead."

"I remember you saying that you sometimes feel trapped by the persona you've created."

"Sometimes I do...yea."

"Billie...look at me."

"No."

"Look at me, beautiful blue eyes."

"No." (She giggles. I realized she was getting me back for earlier.)

(I take both of her hands in mine.)

"You're going to make me work for this, aren't you smartass? Okay. Billie Eilish...I'm not rich, or handsome...and I know I don't deserve to have a woman as beautiful as you in my life...and I thank God every day for moments alone like this with you. The only thing I can offer you is my heart, that's the only thing I've got to give you."

(Billie lifts up her face towards mine, tears streaming down her cheeks.)

"That was beautiful." (She sniffles.)

(I brush her face with my fingers.)

"It's the truth, Billie."

"Why do you love me so much?"

"Because it's the only thing I know how to do."

"Are you going to come with me on tour?"

"That depends. Are you going to keep fucking me like a crazed ferret?"

(Billie smacks my arm.)

"Behave! So, are you going to come with me?"

"You're a pain in my ass...you know that?"

"In a good way?"

(I kiss the top of her head.)

"Always in a good way."

(We walk back towards her car.)

"Why you keep glancing at me, and smiling for?"

"Just thinking of something."

"No ideas you. I'm driving."

"I got one hell of an imagination; you know."

"Uh-huh. Save it for when we tour together."

"If...we tour together, beautiful. I can picture certain people being thrilled with the idea."

"I know. I'm still trying to think of how to talk them into it. Any ideas?"

"Well...I keep your night terrors away. That's one point."

"True...but they're going to want a better reason than that."

"I keep you warm at night?"

(Billie gives me the look.)

"I think they already know about that."

(We climb into her car and leave. Billie and I keep exchanging glances on our way back to Valerie's house.)

"So, we need to give them a reason they'll agree on?"

"That's basically how the game works...yea."

(I stare out the passenger window.)

"There's...only one way I see this going, Billie."

"I know. That crossed my mind as well, and I don't like it. Do you?"

"No... not one bit...but it would make your family happy."

"Do you think it will come to that?"

"Yes...I do. Either that or else they'll expect me to chop my dick off."

"Well...I'll only allow that if I can wear it around my neck." (She smiles.)

"Oh...very funny. So, you can suck on it whenever you want?"

(She grins.) "How'd you guess?"

"I can arrange that now, you know."

"Don't you dare, smartass...I mean it...I'm driving!"

"You don't think we'll get the opportunity while you're on tour...do you?"

"You're not exactly thinking positive thoughts here!"

"I'm sorry. I can't think of any good reason."

"Neither can I...and I don't want to be away from you for six months."

"Neither do I. Especially taking into consideration your night terrors."