Listen To Your Heart ~ Book One.

A talk with Billie part 2

(Billie pouts)

"How do you know she'll agree to that?"

"I don't. Won't know until I talk to her."

"What if she doesn't?"

"I tell her to take it or leave it."

"I don't like this shit one bit, you know that. Either way...Claudia wins."

"This shouldn't be about who wins or loses, Billie. You and Claudia are like sisters almost. That needs to be repaired."

(Huffs)"What kind of sister demands to be fucked or else she blackmails us?"

"I don't know...but we'll try to work thru this together...alright?"

"I love you."

"I love you too, beautiful."

"David?"

"Yes beautiful?"

"Does it bother you...about the baby not being yours?"

"I know it's not mine. I received a text message telling me that right before Claudia arrived."

"Oh...I thought she had told you."

"No... she said it was between you and me to discuss. Do you know who the baby's father is?"

(Billie bites her lower lip and avoids eye contact with me.)

"Is it your brother's?"

(Billie doesn't answer.)

"Billie...I need to know."

"Yes."(she whispers.)

"Thank you for telling me the truth."(I mumble. We sit in silence for a while.)

"David?"

"Yea?"

"What are you thinking right now?"

"Nothing."

(Billie takes my hand in hers.)

"No... I know you...remember? You always get quiet when you're angry or upset about something. Don't shut me out...talk to me."

"Do you...I mean... want to be here with me now?"

"Why wouldn't I want to be with you?"

"You wanted a baby to your brother...now you got one. Kind of makes me feel like an outsider now."

"You're not an outsider. You're my fiancée, and I love you."

"Remember when I said that I was afraid of losing you to someone else?"

"Yes?"

"I never thought it would be to your brother."

"You're afraid I'll fuck my brother again...aren't you?"

"Now that you're having a baby to him...yes."

"Don't you trust me?"

"Can you look me in the eye and deny there isn't any physical attraction between you and your brother still?"

"I don't believe this shit! We're engaged for fucks sake!"

"I'm sorry. Claudia's demands got me a bit rattled...and I don't want to lose you."

"What the hell you want from me, David? I got a headache as is from the fuckin' meeting, and your fucking questions are making it worse!"

"I'm sorry. I'll let you get some sleep."

(I let go of Billie and get off the bed.)

"Where are you going?"

"I figured I'd take a walk. So, you can get some rest."

"You coming back?"

"Yea."

"Soon? You know I have trouble sleeping without you."

"I know. I'll be back."

"I love you."

"Which is why you never answered my question...right?"

(I go to leave, but Billie jumps off the bed and grabs my arm, turning me towards her.)

"What the fuck you want from me? I'm dealing with being raped. I'm dealing with being pregnant. I'm dealing with management, and being engaged to you...and now you want me to deal with whether or not I intend to fuck my brother again or not? You said yourself that this back-and-forth shit had to stop. Don't you think I want that as well? I love you. I'm engaged...to you. What more do you want me to say or do?"

(Billie covers her face in both hands as she cries. I just stand there, not knowing what to say. I step closer to Billie and pull her into a hug.)

"I'm sorry."(I hold her as she cries. Then she slowly puts her arms around my waist.)

"You're an asshole at times. You know that?"