Listen To Your Heart ~ Book One.

Dear Diary part 3

'Dear Diary...'Claudia walked in on Finneas and me fucking one another. Worse yet...she secretly filmed the whole thing and has sent a copy to my parents and David. The shock and disappointment in my parent's face was a major reality check for me and Finneas...the look in David's eyes was...far worse. Anger, betrayal...and a deep sadness. I'm going to do whatever it takes to make things right between us again. I need his heart, as much as he needs mine.'

'Went with David to Ocean City, Maryland. I've tried talking to him, I've practically begged his forgiveness...but nothing seems to work. Have I messed things up so badly that there's no spark left between us anymore? No... I refuse to believe that. It's still there, I just got to find it.'

(The next entries are dated a few weeks ago.)

'Dear Diary...awoke in hospital after being brutally raped. The part that shocked me the most was when I awoke, David was there beside me. I never expected to see him again, after I betrayed him. I feel angry...about everything. Those bastards that raped me took away my respect...my dignity...my power. I feel so violated and helpless.'

'David has been helping me with my rehab. What the fuck is it about him? I yell at him, I tell him that I hate him, but yet he comes and offers to help me every day. What hurts me the most are his eyes. So dark...so mysterious. Yet so full of love for me that it's driving me crazy. Can't he understand that I'm broken? Useless?'

'David let me take my anger out on him. My God...what kind of guy let's someone beat the shit out of them for no reason? I know the answer to that question...a guy who truly loves me. I took his love for me for granted before. I swear I won't make that mistake again...but what happens now between me and Finneas?'

'Dear Diary...after talking with Finneas, I've asked David to marry me. I love him, I truly do...and I know he loves me as well. I also love Finneas, but I know we can't ever fuck again, no matter how badly we might both want one another. I can't take the chance of losing David again...but can Finneas and I go back to just being brother and sister? What if our desire for one another becomes too strong? What if he threatens to quit again if I refuse to let him fuck me?'

(Her mother closes Billie's diary.)

"Oh my God, Patrick! Billie didn't forget to take her pills! She stopped taking them on purpose! What are we going to do? What if the baby isn't David's? Should we tell him what we've discovered? Or hope Billie tells him? What if she never tells him? Does she truly want to spend the rest of her life with David? Or does she still have feelings for Finneas?"

"I don't know Maggie...but if we tell him, and he confronts Billie...then she'll know we saw her diary. If we confront Billie ourselves, she may never trust us again. There's only one thing to do."

"What's that?"

"We confront Billie about her feelings towards her brother...and we try to find a solution to the problem. We also got to prepare ourselves for Billie's baby. Whoever the father may be."